Tangled Webs II: Normal For The Spider - An SVU fic

26.Healing

Hope you're all over being tricked, lol. Here we are with chapter 26, this chapter doesn't really get much lighter but it does give Trevor being oh-so-sweet and the kids so it evens out. Dick Wolf owns what's his and I own what's mine.

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It had been two weeks since Olivia woke from her coma, two weeks in which she reunited with her children and got to see first-hand that Drew was healthy; they cried upon seeing one another the first time and Olivia held her; all of them like she never wanted to let them go.

She saw Travis and then her squad and privately rejoiced in her good fortune and that Faust was now dead and she got to see Alex and Brian who were so thankful that she woke up and had come back to them. When it was quiet, she got to be alone with Trevor and just cry for what happened to her. It was something that would take time with coming to terms with but she didn't know how she ever would. She was just thankful that she had Trevor to lean on because she couldn't do it on her own. She had woken up from that coma so emotional and right now she couldn't handle facing it by herself. Though she wasn't yet ready, Trevor wanted her to talk to him as much as she needed which often brought her to tears when she thought about it. She couldn't bring herself to talk yet, but knowing that he was there made all the difference. Each day she found it harder to deal with until the sixth day when she couldn't help it and just began sobbing when Trevor came. He didn't ask questions, just came and took her in his arms and held her, letting her cry herself to sleep.

Finally after two weeks she was allowed to go home, something that frightened her to death. The thought of returning to that house, walking in that front door and seeing where he knocked her down; the staircase where he began beating her before he...

"Babe, you ready?" He startled her and she jumped, the baby suddenly doing cartwheels to protest the intrusion.

"I can't go back there!" She whispered quietly through tears, rubbing her belly with her unbroken hand. "I can't..."

"Baby, listen to me; it's okay, you never have to go back there. When you're ready I'll have a realtor looking for us a new place and in the meantime, you, me and the kids have a house that I've rented.

"We do?" She wiped the tears that stained her face but more came quickly.

"We do" he said as he caressed her face. "You don't ever have to lay eyes on it again."

"I'm sorry..." She cried.

"For what?"

"This isn't me, I don't...I don't..."

"Baby, it's okay, I promise"

"It's not okay Trevor. I was raped and I try so hard to let it go but I can't...every time I close my eyes I see him; and I hear him...and smell him. I can feel him; on me...in me" she said through tears.

"Olivia..."

"How am I ever gonna be the wife you knew...how am I ever gonna be whole for you...how am I gonna be whole for the children, for this baby when I haven't stopped falling apart?"

"Look at me..." he said as he got down on his knees in front of the bed where she sat, and took her hands. "If I were to tell you I had the answers I'd be lying to you because the truth is I don't; but you have the support of your family, your squad and when you're ready your friends. You don't have to carry this alone; we're here for you!"

"Okay..."

"And you have been more than enough for me and our children...they know how much you love them; I know it and I know how much you love me and this baby. You're just...I know this is hard for you but you are going to be fine; regardless of how long it takes to get there. Just give me what feel you can't handle."