"Beomgyu, what's wrong?"
So hungry.
So, so hungry.
But I can't eat.
"I haven't seen you smile in so long, pet. Can't I have just one smile? Pretty please?"
I'm sorry Jin. I'm dealing with too much right now.
I don't even know if I remember how to smile.
It seems like such a foreign thing.
"You know, it takes more muscles in your face to frown then smile- "
I have to save them. I have to.
They can't go through what I went through
"-provided, you're not frowning, but you know what I mean. Please..."
I was never really like this before.
But I was.
Was I?
I remember happiness though?...
It's a manifestation. You want to be happy. But you don't.
But doesn't everybody deserve happiness?
...
Except me.
There it is.
"Beomgyu! Did you even hear what I just said?"
I look at him.
"You didn't, huh? I said if you start eating little bit consistently, we can take the tube out. I'm sure you would like that, wouldn't you?"
There's your salt.
"Gyu...can we talk about what you said before? About feeling like your not worth saving? You said that very suddenly...while I was suspecting you were going through something with your mental health...why do you think you're not worth saving?"
And there's the wound.
I look away, out the window.
There is no explanation. It just dawned on me all of a sudden.
Where my hands always this cold...
"Beomgyu, please. I feel like I'm losing you. You can tell me anything. That's what I'm here for. Why do you think you're not worth saving, Beomgyu? Tell me, please..."
Because I'm just a waste of space.
According to you.
Who is you?
I am you.
I am...
"BEOMGYU!"
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HARD | A Beomgyu FF
Fanfiction"𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥. 𝘚𝘰, 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥." When Yeonjun meets a troubled boy that most, if not all, have never heard speak, he makes it his mission to hear his voice. To see his happiness. To hear his joyful screams. The hear his laugh. After all...
