into the unknown- a hiccstrid story

Chapter 2- The Fall of a Warrior

just thought I should mention this before we get into the story, but anything that is just italicized is being spoken in Dragonese, while sound effects are italicized and bolded are sounds 

-------------------------------------------------------Astrid pov-----------------------------------------------------------

           I watched the dragon master reject the offering and I should have felt relieved, but instead, I sunk to my knees in hopelessness and despair. I wasn't enough for him and it was my fault. I haven't been eating well since Gobber died, which caused me to lose sleep and look even worse. I hadn't worried about it because it's just me and I've already been proven worthless, but now I've ruined what little worth I had. I looked around and saw a mix of emotions. Many were terrified because their offering had been refused, but many, like Stoic, looked relieved that I had not been taken. Spitelout was Spitelout though and he was just mad that his plan had failed and that he'd been proven a fool. The other teens seemed more relieved than anyone else, though. Huh, I never knew those four had a soft side. Snotlout rushed over and quickly asked, "My angel, are you ok?!" he still couldn't get over his silly crush on me, even though everyone knew that I still loved Hiccup, even with him gone.

I didn't even have it in me to smile anymore. I weakly shoved him away and walked through the crowd to get to my house at the end of the village. Rufnut and Fishlegs helped clear the Vikings out of the way, while Tuffnut kept Snot lout away from me. They knew I just needed space, Snotlout was the stupid one. Ruff and Tuff used to be, but they've matured after Hiccup's death. They had to. He was the only one who could stand them before.

"We're here," Fishlegs whispered to me softly

"tell us if you need anything," Ruffnut said as she went to help her brother with Snotlout.

"Thanks, guys" I mumbled back as I went inside and closed the door. walked over to my bed and I didn't even get undressed before curling up and crying. I'd failed, I really was useless. Maybe the village would be better off without me. It might not be much, but at least they'd have a little more food for the others and someone else could take her house; it was a nice one, wasted on someone useless like her. thoughts like this spiraled through my mind as I drifted off into sleep, dreaming of how I wish I lived. Married to the one I love with my family still alive.

Time skip- the next night (about 18 hours)

I had drifted in and out of consciousness, but something had finally woken me up, what was it? then I heard it again the loud bellow of the horn warning uhg why did today have to be another raid? They were rarely ever two nights in a row, but, like tonight, they did happen. I grabbed my axe, the one given to me by Hiccup before he was taken, and went outside. It was chaos. This raid was worse than any we'd had in years. I should have run to help, but I saw the others. Snotlout was bruised and battered, Ruff and Tuff had matching blood stains running down their backs and Fishlegs was clutching a broken arm. I should have run to help, but my only thought was blaming myself. I dropped my axe and started backing away. The others saw me and started running, but I ran too and I was faster. I reached the cliff edge far before they reached me I hesitated, then jumped. It just needed to end. I couldn't stand it any longer. I lept off the cliff face and waited for the end to come. I felt the wind rushing past my face as I fell; it was exhilarating.

Splat The sound echoed even above the roars of the dragons just before the rest of the teens had reached the ledge.

----------------------------------------------------Hiccup Pov-------------------------------------------------------------

Uuugh, why did the raid have to be at Berk again? I would rather be at literally any other island right now, but of course, the dragons, or whatever was controlling them, decided that they would raid Berk again.

You ok?  toothless flew over and asked me as I hovered over the village, lost in thought

 Yea bud I just want to get this over with I growled back 

together, we flew around the village a few times trying to help, which wasn't working very well because I couldn't get my mind off of yesterday.

Hey hic toothless said as I grabbed a half-processed sheep from a dragon the sheep was yet to be completely opened up, but it didn't have any wool left on it 

What do you think?

If you're thinking about that girl yesterday, you might wanna go get her before she falls

I looked in the same direction as Toothless and cursed. Astrid was about to jump of the stupid cliff. 

"Shit" shit "Shit" shit "Shit" shit 

Hic, you're doing the thing again toothless growled as I dove down to the cliff where Astrid was jumping from, and right before she hit the ground I grabbed her. I dropped the sheep, but that wasn't important. The tide would wash anything away by morning anyway, so the Berkians wouldn't see anything, except maybe a slight blood stain I should have flown fast enough so they didn't see me either

I looked into my arms, which I had retracted the scales from in order to hold her without hurting her and I saw that she had passed out, probably thinking that she had succeded in dying. I flew back up to toothless Do you think you can handle this without me? I need to get her back to the edge and find out what the heck caused her to do that. I asked

I can because it's almost over, but do you really have to bring her back to our place? why can't you just drop her off back down in the village? 

Because if she is trying to kill herself then something is obviously wrong here, so I'm taking her back so I can look after her.

Fine, but I'm not sharing my room and I doubt that Stormfly or any of the others will be willing to share theirs either

That's fine I need to keep her close to me anyway, she can sleep in mine for the time being. see you at home, bud I said then I flew off, carefully holding Astrid in my arms and flying slower than usual so that she wouldn't wake up or get injured along the way. As I flew I thought about why she would do something like that and came up blank. It had been so long since I'd seen her that I couldn't really say I knew her anymore, but I did. I spent the days when there weren't any raids, usually around Snogletog watching her from a distance, making sure she was safe she usually seemed pretty good, but I knew something had happened recently since I hadn't been free to do what I wanted for over a year, something had happened in that time. I looked down at her face as she slept and I knew my feelings hadn't faded like I'd hoped. I'd fallen in love with her before I had left. Of course, she never knew that. no one did, except Gobber That stubborn old man was closer to being a father to me than my real father was. But she was way out of my reach. She was the strongest smartest and most popular girl in the whole village, how could she ever love me the runt of an heir. I had grown since then, but there was still no way that she could ever love me I had become the very thing she despised.

The wind whistled past me as I flew until I landed back at what we call 'the edge'. I landed in my room like usual, except this time I lay Astrid on the bed before going to make myself a cup of coffee, which I had discovered on my travels a few years previously. I needed something to wake me up and sugar wouldn't cut it, so I sat there with my mug and awaited Toothless's return and Astrid's awakening.