Jae's world ☆

materialization of the world (2)

In this enormous fir forest, there is a lake. This lake is cold and foggy, but Jae really likes it. He can dive inside and close his eyes. He feels cut off from time here, that relieves him. This lake is a little further from the houses, there is a sand path to get there. Sometimes around this lake there are butterflies. Jae doesn't like butterflies at all. They scare him, they make him cry.

Because Jae clearly remembers seeing them dead on the ground. Jae finds them ugly and scary. They represent Jae's fears and his failures. Jae has a lot of failure, he is very afraid of failure. Jae wants to be perfect so he will have more friends ! Around this lake, Jae leaves little notes that decompose over time. These notes are words he never dared to say. Jae writes his words on his desk at night when he can't sleep. He's afraid to say these words. He's afraid to destroy everything.. again.

Jae's world is pretty stable now, but there was a time when the walls of the box creaked and the flowers withered. There was a time when he had nothing more than his tears and his poor heart. Jae is afraid of that. He doesn't want everything to be destroyed, he can't repair it again. So Jae hides these words so no one can destroy what he built. He erased these moments from his life, but these words placed everywhere in the forest remind him that sometimes, life was hard.

Jae rereads these words, and tries to do his best. He tries very hard ! That's why Jae is proud of himself and his little flowers growing. They are everywhere, and Jae really likes them. Everything in his world is very detailed, Jae can see it as if it were real. He sees the depth of the wood of fir trees and can smell the scent of rain.

If Jae had answers to questions, the description would be better.