Jae's world ☆

Jae's fears

Jae has fears. Immense fears, insurmountable fears. In Jae's world, these fears don't exist. Jae has several fears like : fear of the dark, fear of failure, fear of abandonment. Jae is weak.

Fear of the dark.

Jae is very afraid of the dark because in the dark, Jae has no control. Jae can't see, Jae can't hear anymore. He feels drowned by the dark space around him, the darkness suffocates him and Jae feels bad. Jae thinks monsters exist, and they all live in the dark.

When night falls, Jae turns on his little lamp and feels in danger. These monsters, Jae knows them well. When he sleeps, they come to wake him up to make him experience his nightmares. Jae doesn't fall asleep in his room anymore, he falls asleep in his world, near Finn and his friends. Jae needs to be reassured and calmed before going to sleep otherwise he has terrible nightmares.

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Fear of failure.

Jae grew up in constant fear of not being good enough. Jae was a loud, boisterous and restless little boy. He loved to play and jump everywhere, he was very happy. He was so agitated that he had trouble concentrating at school, it was difficult to sit still. But Jae was failing a lot in school, and he had no friends. He was very excited and enthusiastic, but no one understood why. Jae's parents started to feel ashamed of him, he was very loud. His mother told him to be quiet, his father looked at him badly. So Jae stopped being loud, stopped being happy and stopped being excited. He had become neutral.

Jae didn't understand his lessons at school, he didn't understand his classmates. He felt very alone. Jae figured if he was the best, then everyone would love him ! But Jae worked very hard, he wanted everyone to be proud of him !

Nothing has changed.

He tried with all his might, it had become his reason for living. But that little boy was never enough. His parents always scolded him for bad grades, others made fun of him at school. Jae ended up creating a little place in the back of his mind where all his friends would be proud of him for what he is.

Over time, Jae found ways to be good at school. But the fear of failure and disappointment sticks to his skin.

Fear of abandonment

Jae is afraid of being alone. He is afraid of having to manage himself, responsibilities scare him. Jae needs someone to be there to comfort him, he needs to be told he tried everything. Jae has always been alone. At school he had no friends, at home his family was too busy. He just wanted love, was it too much ? Jae always feels like he is too much.