𝑴𝒚 𝑩𝒐𝒚 𝑪𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒉 ♡︎

past pain

Today was exhausting.
Everyone was tired..
They had a lot of work today..
"I'm so tired.. I'm going to sleep" Taehyung said looking really tired and his voice was barely audible..
"Yeah.. me too" both jimin and jungkook said.
"Ok. But eat something before sleeping" jin said.
"I'm too tired to eat something now" Taehyung said
"Taehyung.. i said eat something before sleeping" jin made his point clear.
Taehyung sighed in defeat. Also everyone was hungry. The maid served them food and they ate it and rushed to their beds..

2 AM.
Everyone is sleeping. There's no sound in their dorm.. felt like not a single soul is living there. While there was no sound in the house but Jungkook's mind was screaming.. He couldn't stop his brain from overthinking. He was begging himself to relax and sleep but there was no glimpse of sleep in him.so he got up.. and took a glass amd a bottle of whiskey with him.. he really don't drink whiskey that much but tonight he decided to drink it... He was tipsy now.. his mind was confused.. he was thinking about how namjoon started being more open with him.. how namjoon started showing affection openly and don't mind skin ship with him.. he smiled remembering those little moments between him and his crush.. but his smile dropped as soon as he remembered how namjoon directly said that he's not interested in Jungkook. There can never be something romantic between them. He remembered how he heard all of these from namjoon's mouth how he felt that wired pain in his heart hearing namjonie's words..
Tears fell from his eyes as he remember those moments..

Flashbacks :

Jungkookie is 19 years old now. His admiration for namjoon was known by everyone. No one ever thought anything else about Jungkook's feeling.. one day jungkook was walking beside namjoon and his room he was about to enter their shared room with a smile and two crabs in his hand for namjoon.. he stopped when he heard namjoon saying something..

"No hoba.. how can you even think something about me and jungkook? He's like a brother to me.. i can never look at him like that!"

Namjoon almost yelled at jhope who was actually joking saying jungkook probably likes him but not in a brotherly way.. and namjoon got angry..

"Chill bro. I was just saying..but wonder if he really likes you.. what if someday he confess his feelings? I'm just saying you know!" Jhope said calmly..

"There would be nothing like that between us. I can't look at him like that"
Namjoon said..

"Ok. Fine.. let's focus on this now.. I'm sorry" jhope said and namjoon nodded and focused on the lyrics jhope was showing..

But both of them had zero idea about that boy who was standing there.. jungkook felt like every word of namjoon attacked his heart as he felt a wired pain there.. he don't know why but he cried.. he cried without knowing his feelings..he ran from there crying .. probably he can never confess his feelings because of that day..
He got rejected without proposing..

End of flashback..

Jungkook wiped his tears with his sweater paws remembering that day..
How much he wanted to confess but ne can't afford losing the bond he has with namjoon.. and he drank the last glass of his drink..

And he looked outside of the window and let out a long sigh..

He laid down on his bed with a brain full of chaos.. after trying a lot he finally drift into sleep..

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