how long will it last?

diary XXVll - XXVlll

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fuck.
sayang.. aku rasa aku gamon... sayang mlm tadi baru je aku borak dengan el about moving on from you... tapi harini aku dengar lagu "my heart belongs to you" Kat capcut ain so Aku edit us.. tapi lepas tu ain terus edit "Kita" .. dannyca masuk kelas while topik die about gamon dengan kau.. sayang I promise to moved on but I also promise to loving you till form 5. then dannyca tetibe cakap "shaf aku punye" eh fuckk .. tapi perasan yang aku dapat... idk.. do I still have feelings for you? do I? why would I? for you? aku start insecure bile Aku dengan kau... aku tak cukup untuk kau.. fuck btw sayang tadi kelakar la kau kene gigit kerengga bile Kita jadi gang balik Aku happy gila like aku dengan kau rapat... I always wanting to do so.. but kau selesa ke?.. izzat ada kata Kat kau untuk tulis surat untuk aku kan.. aku mmg dah Tau respond kau so I didn't hurt even bit.. I know you shaf...

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shaf lagi 30 Hari.. mampu ke aku ... i know myself I don't in love with you all the time.. but I can't moved on from you.. I don't keep thinking of you but I can't stop thinking about you..

"the moon is beautiful isn't ?"

I used to put this phrases in the story I wrote about you.. but will you ever notice?.. it's tiring to keep waiting but I can't help myself to letting go of you.. I don't want to.. you still holding a piece of me but you don't even realized.. I don't have the strength to ask you for the piece that you've been holding.. i can't close the door.. everyday I will be hoping the same thing.. hoping that you would come back to me.. hold the piece thightly.. but you just won't.. even never.. cause you know nothing about the piece..

I thought I could slowly forget about the piece that has been missing for a long time.. but.. the more distance we are.. the more pieces that you hold..

☆it's December again honey.☆