Hold me as tight as possible {JoongDunk & PondPhuwin}

7. Do i have a crush?

Pond's pov:

Joong and I decided to get something to drink after a long day at school. "Where should we go?" He asks. I looked around a bit and pointed to a cute looking cafe.
"This looks good."
We walked into a place called 'Blue Cloud'. We took a seat at the window and ordered. We were just chatting when I heard a familiar laugh from the table in front of us. I looked where the voice was coming from, and it was Phuwin. "What are you looking at?" Joong asks. When I gave him no answer, he looked behind his shoulder. After a few seconds, he turned back to me and said.
"Why are you looking at Dunk's friend?"
I looked back at Joong, confused. "Dunk? Like your childhood enemy?" Joong nodded.
"See the black haired boy next to him. That's the guy I slept with after the party."
I pause a little.
"I texted him last night, got his Insta from Niran, his name is Phuwin."
Joong looks at me blankly and then says.
"Phuwin is Dunk's childhood best friend. They grew up on the same street as me until Phuwin moved away.
We remain silent. So many thoughts are running through my head. Will sleeping with him and texting him cost me my friendship with Joong?

"Malee! Come get some drinks!"
A man behind the counter yells. A girl from Dunk and Phuwin's table, with light brown hair and an apron with the cafe's logo on it, stands up and makes her way to the counter to get some drinks from one table to another. She gestures something to Dunk and Phuwin, who also stand up and go to the bar, taking drinks while the girl starts to make more. Dunk came to our table and placed our drinks in front of us. Joong had a faint smile on his face.
"If you need anything else, don't hesitate to ask."
He said with a smile. When he left, I raised my eyebrow in confusion and looked at Joong.
"Shouldn't you hate him?"
I ask. Joong sighs.
"Me and him met at a shopping mall, and he confronted me with a little secret I have, and he swore not to tell anyone."
"The secret is that you talk to Jai." I say and take a sip of my coffee. Joong looks at me confused.
"How do you know that?" He asks curiously.
"You smile when you text, and once when you went to the bathroom, your phone screen lit up, and it was a message from her. That's when I started putting the pieces together."
Joong is silent and then starts to laugh.
"You knew the whole time."

"Let's get something sweet."
I say. Joong noods. I tell a nearby worker that
"We would like to order.
"I'll send someone over to help you." He says and leaves. A minute later, Phuwin makes his way to our table. When his eyes landed on me, his smile faded a little. There was a hint of annoyance in his face.
"What can I get for you?"
"Yes, we'd like two strawberry cakes, please." He wrote something down.
"Okay, I'll be right back."
Soon, he arrives with two cakes and places them in front of us. For some reason, I couldn't help but smile. Something is different with this boy, I've never felt it with my other connections.
After we finish eating, we pay and make our way outside.
"Okay, I'm going to go, see you at school tomorrow." Joong says. I wave and start to leave as well. I walk to my car and start it. After a quick 5 minute drive, I open my front door.

I take a hot shower and sit on my couch, drying my hair. I turn on the TV and flip through the channels. My phone buzzes.

New message from Phuwintang

I smile. I click on the notification that took me to Instagram.

Phuwintang
You've officially become a stalker

Ppnaravit
I didn't know you like that place.
I swear
It was a random choice

Phuwintang
Thin iced naravit.
Thin ice.

I lock my phone. God, what if he thinks i actually tried to stalk him. But why does it actually matter. We just had sex a few days ago. I am no one to him. And he is no one to me. Why am i even trying. I get up from the couch and walk to the kitchen to make myself something to drink. I look through the cabinets and pick out green tea. I put water in the kettle and start boiling it. After it's done, i pour it into a mug and let it sit there for a little while with the teabag in. I go finish drying my hair and make my way back to the kitchen to get my tea. I go upstairs and sit down on my bed to drink my tea and just scroll on my phone. After a while, i got a message.

New message from Ava.K

What does she want.

Ava.k
Hey Pond
Are you awake?

Ppnaravit
Yeah?

Ava.k
Wanna come to my place?

I think for a while.

Ppnaravit
Sure.

I put on my clothes and shoes. I take a quick look in the mirror and walk out, closing the door behind me. I get in my car and drive off. I ring the doorbell, and Ava answers it. We go inside and make our way to her bedroom.

I look at the ceiling. I can't get him out of my mind. No matter what I do, I keep thinking about him. I look to my right and see Ava half asleep. Is this even right? I know me and Phuwin are no one for each other, but sleeping with someone else just feels wrong. I look at my phone: 23:12. I slowly get out of bed and start to get dressed again.

"Where are you going?"
I remain silent.
"I think we should end this." I say.
"End what? Sleeping together?"
"Yeah, I don't want to do this anymore."
I turn and look at her.
"Are you serious?" She laughs.

"Totally." She stops laughing and looks at me in a kind of disgusted way.

"We've been doing this for almost a year, and suddenly, you want to stop? Did your girlfriend find out that you're sleeping with me?"
"Do you really think I'm a person who would cheat?" I say in an annoyed and angry tone. She remains silent with a small grin on her face.

"Maybe. You just seem to give off that vibe."

After she finishes her sentence, I decide to leave. I sit in my car, but I don't turn it on. I give off cheater vibes. Is that why Phuwin wants to stay away from me? I cover my face with my hands and just stay like that for a few minutes to clear my head. Do I really have feelings for him? Why can't I stop thinking about him, and whenever I see him, I just smile. I groan. I pull out my phone and start googling. How do you know if you have feelings for someone?

• They become a priority.
• You can't stop thinking of them.
•You feel joy and happiness when. thinking of them or seeing them.
•You make changes in your life so you can be with them.
•................

Do i have a crush on Phuwin Tang....