Divine Struggles | Taekook

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Tae called Yoongi on the way to the hospital. They are both so close to the Min couple, but if he called Jimin he knows he would lose too much sleep worrying about his best friend. Yoongi understood and told him to keep him updated and he will tell Jimin when he wakes up. Tae holds Jungkook's hand the whole car ride, praying something doesn't happen to their little baby or the love of his life. So many things are running through his head.

They arrive at the hospital and Tae carries Jungkook inside. They are taken to a maternity ward and Tae brings Jungkook inside his room. He describes what he is feeling to the doctors as 'stabbing feelings, and aching in his stomach.' Taehyung's heart drops at those words. He is worried about the baby. But Jungkook has been so careful? He eats healthy and only what he is allowed. He stays hydrated and he doesn't do extraneous activities if he doesn't have to. So what is going on?

The doctors take their leave to run some tests with the blood they took from Jungkook's arm. They gave him some pain medication so he is now laying in bed, frozen, attached to wires and an IV drip. Tae walks over to his husband and sits on the edge of the bed. He takes Jungkook's hand in one of his, and he lifts Jungkook's chin with the other to give him a sweet kiss. "It will be alright baby. It has to be. We will get through it I promise you. I love you Junkookie, keep pushing through," Tae whispers. He sets their foreheads together and hears a sob from Jungkook. He pulls the crying boy into his arms and rubs his back soothingly.

Jungkook fists the back of Tae's shirt tightly, whispering little prayers that their baby is okay. He has wanted to have a baby with Tae for so long. That cannot be ripped away from him now. The doctor walks back in with a grim look on his face. "Mr. Kim?" Jungkook takes his head out of Tae's chest. He keeps their fingers intertwined as he looks up at the doctor. "I-Is my baby alright?" He whispers.

The doctor looks at Jungkook with sad eyes. "Mr Kim I am so sorry.. the tests that we ran showed that despite all your incredible efforts and work you did for the baby, the fetus just wasn't strong enough to survive."

Jungkook's eyes brimmed with more tears instantly.

"You miscarried Mr. Kim."

Jungkook's heart starts beating out of his chest.

"I am terribly sorry Mr. Kim."

Tae just wraps his arms around Jungkook so tight. Jungkook has his hands covering his face to muffle his cries.

"We are going to keep you here overnight to monitor you. We will send you home in the morning. We will keep you both in our thoughts here." With that the doctor takes his leave.

As soon as Jungkook hears the door click shut he lets out the most heartbreaking sob. Tae just holds him tighter, trying to hide his own tears and stay strong for his husband. After the words 'not strong enough to survive' everything was a blur for Jungkook. He just lost his baby. He lost their baby. He starts to move away from Taehyung, filled with so much sadness and anger, but also guilt. He was supposed to protect their baby. He didn't do that.

Tae realizes he's being pushed away and he quickly takes a hold of Jungkook's hands. He knows his husband too well. He knows he is feeling like this is his fault. "Baby no you cannot do this," He says sternly. He cups his face with his hands delicately. "You will not blame yourself for this. The doctor said there is nothing you could've done no matter what. Please don't feel guilty. I cannot bear to see you beat yourself up because of this," He whispers. "We are strong Jungkookie right?" He asks. Jungkook just keeps sobbing, ignoring him.

"Kim Jungkook, look at me please. I know it's hard baby but please I need you to listen to me," Tae says. Jungkook looks at him hesitantly, heartbreak filling his eyes. Tae's gaze softens. "We are strong aren't we?" He goes back to a whisper. Jungkook gives the smallest nod. "We will push through this. I promise you. We will move past all of this heartbreak and we will try again. I am going to have a baby with you no matter how many tries it takes. I refuse to let you live a life where you don't have the baby you have always wanted," Tae says as he caresses Jungkook's cheek.

He just receives a nod and a head placed on his chest. Tae re-adjusts them so that he has his back against the raised bed and Jungkook in his lap. The younger lays face down on Tae's stomach, arms wrapped around his waist. Tae locks his fingers in Jungkook's hair, knowing that is the quickest way to soothe him. He leans down and places a gentle and loving kiss on top of his head. "I love you baby. I will help you every step of the way I promise."

Through broken sobs and never ending tears, Jungkook responds with an "I-I love you t-too Tae."