Divine Struggles | Taekook

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And they did. They tried and tried and tried. For a year. Jungkook quickly lost hope. By the last time they got that negative test, Jungkook couldn't bear the pain anymore. He sobbed his heart out into Tae's chest, shoulders shaking violently. Tae tried his best to calm his distressed husband while hiding his own heartbreak. They know that their only chance of getting pregnant is by having sex, because there are no surgical methods that would suit him.

"Baby love I am so fucking sorry. I don't know what's happening," Tae lets out his own tears. He holds Jungkook impossibly close, as close as humanly possible. He just wants to hold his husband and never ever let him go. Jungkook just lets Tae hold him, unsure of how to respond. He knows it's not his husband's fault and he would never place that blame on him.

"I-It was so easy the f-first time and now it's l-like we are being p-punished Tae," Jungkook sobs. He just wants him to have the comfort of knowing they are gonna have a baby. He wanted to tell him on Christmas that he was pregnant. They only have one more chance to time things perfectly. Jungkook just wants god to grant him this one early Christmas wish. He just wants his baby.

"Tae please.. One more time.. We want this so bad we can't give up now.." Jungkook says with some slight light in his voice. Tae looks up into those doe eyes. They are covered in heartbreak with the slightest glint of hope. He gives Jungkook a slow kiss, placing his hand on Jungkook's stomach. "We can try as much as you want, my love," He sniffles. "We will time this perfectly."

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Jungkook puts in the effort yet again. He tells his friends they are going to try again and he receives warm prayers and lots of good luck. He prepares his body, pays attention to the timing of when they should go for it, and he makes sure that nothing will go wrong. Tae is nothing but supportive. He makes sure Jungkook is careful, he lets nothing touch his stomach except for the 'wish kisses' which have become softer than ever.

Jungkook walks in the house after going out shopping. He can hear Tae watching something on the TV in the living room. He takes a deep breath and walks into the room to see Tae sitting on the couch playing with Bam by throwing his tennis ball across the room. Jungkook lets out a true genuine laugh. He feels true happiness seeing his husband play with his puppy. "Someone is happy today! How was shopping baby?" Taehyung asks happily. "It was fun! Jimin got a lot of stuff for Areun. She's gotten so big, hyungie! I want to go see her soon," he tells his husband with a smile on his face.

"Oh baby love I can never get enough of that bunny smile of yours. It has been so long since I have that smile," Tae says to him. "Well Tae you make me just so happy. And things have really seemed to pick up for us. Despite the trouble we are having I have been able to find happiness in you and our friends.. I feel genuinely happy and no matter what happens this next time we try I know we will bounce back. We are strong, remember?" Jungkook asks him.

Tae giggles and lets out a smile of his own. "We are strong Jungkookie." Jungkook grabs his hands and starts pulling him slowly to the bedroom. "That being said, if we have timed it correctly.. Tonight is our night," Jungkook whispers. Tae gives him a playful smirk before lifting him off the floor and carrying him into the bedroom and VERY gently laying him on the bed. "One more kiss for good luck, my love," Tae whispers to his stomach. He places a 'wish kiss' right above his belly button causing Jungkook to break out into a smile.

"Hyungie I have a really good feeling it will work this time," Jungkook tells Tae. "Then let's get this baby in you, yeah?"