Divine Struggles | Taekook

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Jungkook wakes up with a massive headache. He doesn't drink so he knows It's not a hangover. He sits up carefully so he doesn't wake up his husband. It's Christmas eve, and Jungkook wants to spend all day in bed with Taehyung before they spend Christmas day with their friends tomorrow. Jungkook stands up and almost falls over. His legs must just be tired. He makes his way out into the kitchen for some water and he sees that Tae forgot to put the lid back on the candle. He goes to close it when he gets a big whiff of the smell. It instantly makes him nauseous. He runs into the closest bathroom before he throws up on the floor. God he hasn't felt this bad since-

Holy shit.

He hasn't felt this bad since he was pregnant.

He has all the same symptoms. Is it worth it to take a test? He thinks so. God this could be the perfect time. He really wanted to tell his husband he was pregnant on Christmas. They haven't tried for awhile but he hasn't tested for awhile. He wants to let this one stay as long as he can before he tests. It's been well over a few months since they last tried for the baby.

He needs to do this now. All the signs are pointing to him being pregnant. He takes one of the tests out of the drawer and takes it. He sits on the toilet lid waiting impatiently. He keeps taking deep breaths to steady his breathing. He thinks It's been three minutes. He stands and walks over to the counter, ready to flip the test over. He takes one last deep breath and flips the test over.

He immediately falls to his knees. Tears streaming down his face.

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Jungkook locked himself in the bathroom and cried for an hour.

Finally.

Finally he is pregnant.

He finally has hope that he and Tae will have their little baby. He presses his hands to his stomach gently. "P-Please little baby.. S-Stay safe for me and Appa.. P-Please.." He whispers to his belly. He is overwhelmed with joy. He knows that there is a chance that he could miscarry again but he has the right people he can go to for help if it comes to that. He finally has his baby in his belly again.

He takes a few minutes to calm himself down before going back to bed before Tae wakes up. He knows his face is still red from crying but he can't help it. He hides the test in his bedside table and climbs back into bed with the biggest smile on his face. Instinctively, Tae wraps his arm around Jungkook, pulling him on top of his body to cuddle him. Jungkook just lets him, since he doesn't know what has happened in the last hour. "Baby were you crying?" He hears Tae whisper with a sleepy voice. His husband was awake and he didn't know. There is only one thing he could think of to explain his tear streaked face, but he will have to lie a little. "Oh um.. yeah I just got a negative test. I just needed a minute but I feel better now," he smiles up at him.

"That's alright darling. I'm just glad you are feeling better, my love," Tae says and kisses him on the top of his head. Jungkook hums and puts his head down on Tae's chest, smiling. He knows exactly how he is going to tell his husband tomorrow. For now, he is going to enjoy his last day as a 'hidden' family of two with the love of his life in bed.

Bam and Yeontan walk in the room wanting to jump up on the bed. Jungkook scoots Tae closer to the edge to make more room for them, and calls the dogs up to lay with them. Bam walks over and licks Taehyung's face; His favorite way to say 'Good morning appa!' Tae lets out a few giggles before sitting up and putting his back against the headboard. He leans over to give the dogs kisses on their heads, then leans over to his husband to give him a sweet kiss on his lips. "You are happier this time. Last time I couldn't get you to stop crying baby," Tae says. "It's Christmas eve. I didn't want to ruin our Christmas with each other and our friends by being so sad that I can't move. Besides, I'm in a better mindset now. I know we can just try again," Jungkook says truthfully.

"I'm so proud of you Jungkookie. You are the strongest boy I know," Tae gives him another sweet kiss. "Merry Christmas eve, I love you."

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The house was freezing. The heating system was on, but the temperatures outside have been too warm considering It's christmas time. So that only means one thing. Snow. Taehyung wakes up to a bright white light shining through the bedroom window. After his eyes adjust, he can see the blanket of white snow covering the ground with the sun shining proudly. They haven't had a white Christmas in years. This one is gonna be special. He knows it.

He looks down at the sleeping boy and coos. Jungkook has his head buried in Tae's neck, with half of his body on top of Tae's. He had an arm wrapped around his shoulders and a leg wrapped around his waist. Tae loves this. Just laying in bed with his husband. However It's Christmas. And It's time to open gifts. It's a Taekook tradition that the minute they wake up, they open presents with each other.

"Baby love, wake up," Tae whispers and kisses his forehead. "Wake up sweet boy It's Christmas." Jungkook takes a sharp breath and stirs awake. A smile spreads on his face when he picks his head up and sees his husband looking down at him with so much love in his eyes. "Good morning, my love. Merry Christmas!" Tae says to him. Jungkook leans in and gives him a warm kiss. "Merry Christmas Tae, good morning."

"It's time for presents!" Tae says as he lifts the covers to get out of bed. Jungkook swears his husband is like a little kid. He is so excited for his presents every year. Jungkook giggles and grabs Tae's hand to walk out to the living room to open gifts. He takes his place right in Tae's lap and Tae hands him his first present. He takes it with a shy smile and starts to unwrap it. He pulls out a few different colored beanies with KJK embroidered on each one. "My mom made these for you. You don't have anything with the correct last name on it so now I can show you off that you are mine to everyone during the winter!" Tae says happily.

"Thank you Tae, I love them. Tell your mom I said thank you too!" He gives his husband a kiss and gives him his first present. Tae opens up a book series that he has been talking about buying for months. "Baby, thank you! I have been dying to read these!" Jungkook laughs at his husband's cuteness. They exchange a few more gifts with each other when it comes to Tae's last present. "There's one last gift for you love, but I kept it hidden in the bedroom. I'll be right back!" He gets up from Tae's lap and goes cheerfully into their bedroom to get the last present.

He grabs the test out of the bedside table and puts it in a shiny red box with a bow. He is so excited to tell his husband that he is pregnant. He can hardly wait! He heads back downstairs and plops himself back in Tae's lap. "I saved the best for last Taetae. I already know you will love it," Jungkook smiles. Tae takes the gift and starts to take off the bow. Jungkook bites his lip out of nervousness. He is so excited to see his husband's reaction, but he told his husband he had a negative response. So what will he think of a positive one? 

Tae takes the top of the box off and sets in on the table next to him. He unfolds the wrapping paper and visibly stops. His breath hitches in his chest and his eyes water instantly. He looks up at his husband with a shocked look on his face to see Jungkook looking at him with his bunny smile and tears in his own eyes. "Baby..?" Tae whispers in disbelief. Jungkook just slowly nods his head, smiling wide. "I'm pregnant Tae," he lets out a tiny sob. Tae finally lets his tears fall. "You're serious Jungkookie? You're pregnant?" Tae whispers. "I found out yesterday morning. I was shocked too," Jungkook whispers back. Tae pulls him in close for the happiest and warmest hug he has ever had. "We are having our baby, darling. We will finally be parents," Tae says, full of bliss.

He moves his hands to Jungkook's stomach and kisses him on the lips.

"It's a Christmas miracle."