His Assistant [Milo Manheim]

Then Your Fired

"Thanks.." Carson awkwardly accepted the cup of tea from the now clothed Milo. He managed to pull on some pj bottoms and a T-shirt.

Also lending her some one of his smaller, older T-shirt's and some sweats she had to roll up a few times around her ankles. Even though they were clean they smelled just like him. The scent oddly comforting as he sat on the other side of the couch, now time for their talk.

The talk she had spent a better half of the year putting off hoping that by ignoring this situation it would simply go away.. not fester into what it is now.

"...So.." Taking a sip of her tea Carson finally looked up to face him. Milo swallowing, unsure how to start. He had so many thoughts in his head so many things he wanted to put out there. Placing his tea down he straightened up on the couch.

Stories did typically have a beginning.

"I remember the first day you began working for my mom." Milo began, running his palms against his thighs out of habit. "I was fifteen and you were like the coolest person I'd ever met.." A small smiled pulled at his lips as the memory flashed through his mind of a bright and bubbly nineteen year old version of Carson.

"You have always been a huge part of our family from the start and I never thought anything of it until around senior year. I had broken up with my girlfriend and was spending a lot of time with my mom and inadvertently you as we talked about colleges and you began juggling my life as well as my moms.. When my mom made you my assistant I was excited but at the same time.. It began to piss me off.. because it was then I finally realized that I liked you and I never stood a fucking chance.."

Carson sat there stunned as Milo confessed.

"I couldn't get you out of my head, and it got worse in New York and between school and having to turn down roles because of school.. Not having the best kind of friends over there either just put me in this really dark kind of place.. I just figured it was easier to try and push you away and act like a total asshole—" He choked at the end. Shaking his head as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Then we slept together and you said I was just a stupid drunk mistake.." Carson swallowed hard, her own eyes becoming glassy as it all started to make sense.
She was the reason for his mood swings.

"Milo I'm so sorry! I would've never said—I didn't mean it like that." Grabbing his hand she was trying to figure out a way to explain. "—-I was embarrassed."

"..Because we slept together?"
"Yes because who sleeps with their nineteen year old boss that typically drives them crazy on a daily basis, which I get now why you were acting that way did but for me.. at that time.. Yeah I was embarrassed. I felt like an idiot that I just hooked up with you because we were drinking and it had been a while.. for me.. Like was I so desperate for sex I was willing to sleep with someone that hated me ?"

"I guess I'm a pretty good actor then.." Milo shook his head. "Fuck I never meant to be such an asshole to you Carson." Scrubbing his hand over his face as he seemed to be thinking everything over.

"I never meant to be such a bitch either.." Carson smirked, happy she was able to get Milo to pick his head up out of his hands. "You were not!"

"Uh kind of, I mean I wasn't happy I was your assistant. I didn't mind it when I was handling both you and your moms lives but when Camyrn kicked me to the side and just like handed me over.. It sucked." Carson frowned, "I felt like I had to uproot my whole life to go to NYU with you.. or I wouldn't have a job anymore..."

"My mom would've never fired you."

"You can't just say no to Camryn Manheim..." Carson shrugged, "it just didn't feel like it was a choice then but maybe if I had actually spoke up about it, it would've been different."

"As messed up as everything has become though, I'm glad you came to New York with me.." His voice was small and it brought Carson back to the reason they were having this conversation in the first place.

"Me too." Her voice wavered, realization filling her. "...but Milo we can't...we can't keep sleeping together..."

"Sleeping together?" His eyebrows pulled together in confusion as he watched her nod.
"Why not? You keep saying we can't but here we are... You spent an entire day in my bed Car, I was literally just inside of you! You can't sit there and tell me there's nothing there." Carson gaped at him, her cheeks flushing and her skin became hot all of a sudden as she thought back to how many times he had her under him, or on top of him that day. To how he had her melting into him and falling apart because of him.

"Your mom would go ballistic.. and what we just keep hooking up? I'm your Manager this is already so inappropriate!" Her cheeks continued to flush, not to mention the idea of Camryn ever finding out left her horrified.

"My mom ... My mom isn't a factor in this." Milo stumbled over his words. Even he couldn't lie, he knew his mom would flip out.. at first. "This is about us.. What we want.."

"But what exactly do you want?" She pried, she wasn't sure if she could just embark on this friends with benefits situation with anyone let alone a guy that was technically her boss.

"You Carson!" He looked at her in disbelief, watching as her eyes went wide from his outburst. He realized he might've been a bit too harsh but fuck he needed her to understand. "I don't want to just sleep around.. I want you.." Swallowing hard he felt his stomach flip, a unsettling silence falling around them. He finally had put it out there. All of it.

"I.." Carson stuttered, she had wondered if maybe he had a crush after they slept together the first time. She had mostly assumed he had just been wanting to sleep with her again because she was convenient or for a power trip. Hearing him declare his feelings. Well.. she wasn't sure what to think anymore.

"Say something.." He pleaded, seeing his declaration leaving her lost for words but not in the way he wanted.

"Milo I.. I can't be with you." She shook her head, her eyes stinging as she said it out loud. She didn't want to hurt him but there was no way, no chance this would work. She wasn't willing to risk it.
They could get over whatever attraction they had to each other. It was a fling that was it.

"I can't believe I'm saying this.. but I can't have you here anymore." Sitting back, his eyes met hers. "W-what?"

"You can't be my manager anymore.. I can't have you in my place, see you everyday.. Watching you and Gavin was already too fucking much I literally had to go see a therapist today because I was afraid I would take my anger out on you again or someone else that didn't deserve it!" Carson gaped, the amount of information he was throwing at her was practically giving her whiplash.

"I can't have you here.. a-and pretend it's okay. I'm so sick and tired of pretending I'm okay.." Muttering under his breath he wiped at his eyes before looking back at her. "I'm sorry Carson but your fired."

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