Your Dark Promise

Chapter 42

Dean's p.o.v

Dean and Cas just laid there for a little while regaining their bearings, Dean a smiling fool. He didn't understand the change in his body, how it happened at all to finally respond to him. But day after day of being away from Cas he missed him, he thought about him in every type of way, and when he saw him he was happy. But when he finally got him alone in his room, all he wanted to do was be inside of him, and finally, his body worked how he wanted it to.

Dean sat up after a while tossing Cas' clothes to him, "If you ever want to talk, you need to get dressed, or I won't be able to focus."

Cas smiled at him as he sat up, slipping his shirt back on over his head, "I thought you weren't comfortable giving orders?"

Dean looked him over, "By all means, don't listen to me and stay naked, but don't blame me for not being able to keep my hands to myself."

Cas stood pulling his pants up his hips, "One time of unplanned amazing sex and suddenly you're a sex scoundrel." He said, shaking his head. He looked back to the bed where Dean was still shirtless lounged on the bed in nothing but his sweat pants, "I'll just sit over here to be safe." Cas said, pointing at the small couch behind him, looking Dean's bare chest over intently.

After a moment of Cas just staring at him, Dean spoke up, "You said we needed to talk?"

Cas snapped his eyes back to his and nodded, getting a serious look to his face as he straightened his back. "Since I ran you off the morning after the incident with Jacob, I never got around to talking to you about this. Jacob has been warning me to get rid of you since I bought you. But now he's saying I have to actually kill you, and if I don't in a timely enough manner, then he will. So, I wanted to give you a heads up."

Dean just nodded, "Okay, what else?"

Cas looked to him with a frown, "Well, I wasn't sure we'd get this far after telling you that."

Dean blinked at him, "Cas the Styne's have almost killed me a few times now, I think I'll be okay."

Cas just nodded, "There's... there's something else that I wanted to tell you after. It's a big deal, and you really might regret having sex with me just then once I do tell you."

Dean felt a little nervous at that, but if Cas thought the first thing he told him was something to leave him over, then he wasn't all that worried, really. He watched as Cas took a few steadying breaths, "Just tell me, Cas, it'll be okay." Dean said with a smile.

Cas looked him over, "That drug I gave you. It was made by the Styne's, and I knew the whole time it was."

Dean just gave a small nod to this, "Okay. I think it's weird you bought from them given your experience with them. But, you didn't use it on me again after I told you about what they did to me."

"That's not all." Cas said as he ran his hand over his neck, "During that night with Jacob, he told me that Eldon invented that drug, specifically for you. He hoped one day he would be able to get you again, and then you would react to him how he wanted you to."

Dean sat up a little to this, his brows pinching together as his fingers tapped one round on each hand before he looked to Cas. "Alright."

"Alright?" Cas asked.

Dean nodded, "It's not like you knew that. I hated that you used that on me. I hate that fact more now. But we were different then with each other than we are now. And I really hate you had to experience the drug yourself too, Cas, you didn't deserve any of that."

Cas gave a lopsided smile to Dean, falling for Dean a little bit more with each moment that passed between them today.

"Anything else?" Dean asked.

"I missed having you around the penthouse. I do like you, Dean. And I've liked you for a while, I think. I'm just really fucked up though. And I don't know what I'm doing here, or how to act with you sometimes. And if you do actually like me and want to stay with me you're going to have to be okay with me fucking up a lot."

Dean just laughed out to this, "I don't know if you've noticed Cas but I'm pretty fucked up too."

Cas looked him over, "But I mean, I'm not sure there's certain things I can change about myself Dean. I'm always going to like bossing you around, being the more dominant one sexually. I hate the feeling of anyone trying to control me and I'll end up pushing you away if I feel like that's happening. After Jacob I can't fall back into that role."

Dean thought on this for a moment before he got up from the bed and approached Cas on the couch he looked down at him before kneeling in front of him, staring up at him from between his legs. "I didn't know you while you were with him. I've only ever known this version of you. And I like it. Tell me what to do, Cas. Take control of whatever you want." He ran his finger over the collar he still wore, "I like this. I like who you are. I like the idea of you owning me even."

Cas just looked down at him shocked, Dean grabbed his hand and placed it on his cheek smiling up at him. "I'm not choosing this because you're fucked up or I'm fucked up. Who cares that we are? Who you are now fits me. I don't want you to change. Just don't force anything on me, and I think you've learned from that. I just want this. We can figure it out as we go."

Cas kept staring at him in disbelief, "And what if I want you waiting for me in my room in your underwear? Want you to always wear a collar? What if next time you decide to bend me over and fuck me like today I remind you of your place?"

Dean shrugged, "I'd say the past few months has made me realize I like that. I don't know if we'll last Cas. I don't know if we will grow with each other or against each other. I don't know if we'll both even make it out of the Styne's alive once we make our move on them. All I'm saying is I'd like to try this."

"How are you figuring all of this out so easily?" Cas asked, running his hands through Dean's soft hair.

Dean shrugged, "A week away for perspective and a couple of days just to my thoughts seemed to do the trick."

Cas grabbed Dean by the collar pulling him up to him, Dean positioning one knee between Cas' legs, the other on the couch beside him as Cas kissed him, their teeth clicking together from the force of the kiss. Dean smiled into the kiss, resting his hands on Cas' chest and allowing the man below him to take what he needed from this kiss right now.

After several minutes and Cas' hands getting ready to explore him more in depth, Dean pulled back, looking Cas over, moving some hair from his forehead. He hadn't seen any marks lingering on his body from Jacob, and Cas acted just like he always had so far today. He bit at his lip, wanting to talk to him about it, "Ask your question, Dean." Cas said softly between them.

Dean smiled a bit that Cas always knew when he wanted to speak but held himself back all the time. "How are you, Cas? After that night? I felt pretty shifty for leaving once I did. Are you okay?"

Cas looked him over steadily before nodding his head, "Surprisingly, I really feel okay. I think between knowing I had you even though you weren't there, and knowing soon all of this will be over and he'll be gone, helped. If anything, it just made me madder than hell, I can't wait to make him pay for everything he's ever done to me."

Dean rubbed his thumb across Cas' cheek, really amazed by the drive and resolve he had. He nodded, "And you promise if you're never not okay, with anything like that you'll not push me out again?"

Cas almost rolled his eyes to this, "I pushed you out for your own good." Dean gave him a glare, "But maybe I was too hasty." Dean kept staring at him. "All I can say is I'll try." Cas breathed out. Dean smiled and gently connected their lips again for a brief moment before turning to collect his things, excited to be going home with Cas today