Chapter 4: Highest in the Room

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                                                                   Tyler's POV

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           I was never much of a party person, and my girlfriend knows that.But tonight was different..Recently I've been under  compression of stress.I cried 13 times this week.I know it sounds pathetic,but I've started something I vowed to never do again.I stared to have these fazes It'll usually start with me wondering if I'm good enough.Then it goes to a break down about a bunch of different things.Then I'll walk into the bathroom self-harm, and go on my balcony to vape or some shit like get high.This isn't normal for me though. I've hid this from my girlfriend so she won't worry. I'm scared that eventually my mental battle won't be able to go on ad will lead me to blindly commit suicide.Yes, I know I should get help but I'm scared..It hurts..I cannot even describe it.I just want my life to end.I can't do it anymore, it's to much to carry in my shoulders.I've tried but theres no hope for me..

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