Invisible string (lestappen)

Chapter 7 : Max

The Singapore Grand Prix is just around the corner. Since it was more practical for both of us, Daniel and I decided to fly there together.

I love travelling with him because I know I won't be bored for a second. He's just that good of an entertainer. And I need the distraction.

Now more than ever.

My relationship with Kelly hasn't been at its best over the last couple of days. She was supposed to come with us, but she canceled an hour ago. Telling me she had to stay in Monaco to work on an important modeling contract, which had changed at the last minute. I wasn't even surprised when I read the text, but it was still a sting in my tail. Because I knew it was just an excuse.

We both did.

The worst part is nothing really happened. We're just growing apart more and more every day. The love we both have for each other fading away. Like a candle slowly dying of suffocation. We're both pretending that nothing has changed. That everything is fine. But that couldn't be further from the truth. I can feel it, deep down. And I can't help but feel responsible for it. I want to be the boyfriend she so deserves, to love her without questioning it every second of the day. But I guess you can't keep faking feelings forever. No matter how hard you try.

I thought this was something we could repair. Something we could work on. The more time goes by, the more I'm starting to doubt that. Maybe we're just not meant to be ? I feel so confused. If it's not her, then what is it that I need ? She has everything I could ever ask for. I don't see how I could find someone better. And yet, despite knowing that. I'm just not in love with her.

The realization of what I just thought struck me.

I'm not in love with Kelly.

Why ? Why can't I be? What the hell is wrong with me ?

'Are you okay Max ?'

It wasn't until I heard Daniel's voice that I realized how deep in my thoughts I was. I look out of the window of the private jet to stare at the clouds in the sky.

It's relaxing and I kind of want to avoid the worried look I know is on his face as well.

'Yeah, I'm fine don't worry. Just a little tired'

He snorts.

'Sure. You're tired. Just spill already, I can tell something is wrong by a mile away'

I sigh. How does he know me so well ? I can't even fake it with him.

'It's Kelly'

I finally dare to look at him. He's sitting comfortably in the big leather chair across from me. A small brown table separates us.

'What about her ?'

'Let's just say we're not in the best place at the moment'

He nods, but doesn't seem the least bit surprised by my statement. My brow furrows.

'You're not surprised ?'

'Why would I be ?'

My shoulders shrug.

'I don't know. I've never said anything bad about our relationship before, I thought you'd be more... shocked to hear that'

He gives me an affectionate smile.

'Max. Just because you never said anything bad doesn't mean I didn't notice when things weren't perfect between you guys'

'Was it really that obvious ?'

'It wasn't', he sighs. 'But I know you, so I could tell'

'I really like her'

'I know you do, but sometimes liking someone isn't enough'