Meademas Girl

I don't believe you

Leah pov
As soon as I asked my question she furrowed her eyebrows and entered a deep thought until she came out with response, "I'm fine honestly, I'm just not that hungry as I had a big breakfast this morning so I'll be ok with just a drink". I frowned at her knowing that everything she had just said was a big lie, Beth told me she hadn't eaten anything this morning and unfortunately for her she's just been caught out, why didn't she want to eat? I thought to myself, I had to speak to her about it, I couldn't not I care about y/n and don't want to see her dragged into this mess I know what this road can bring and it's something I hope for her and her mums sake they don't endure.

"Y/n I know that's not true, your mum pulled me to the side this morning and said you hadn't had any breakfast, what's going on sweetheart it's just me and you, you can talk to me." As I said that her face dropped and eyes welled up with tears but she blinked them back not daring to look me in the eyes, as the tears then most likely will have fallen so instead she put on her I'm fine but not really face.

Y/n pov
How did Leah know she always knows bloody everything, I continue looking down as I can feel tears threaten to fall not daring to look at Leah as I knew if i did then they most definitely would cascade out and I wouldn't be able to stop. My best option was to pretend all was ok and just to try and move the topic on, "it doesn't matter just drop it, so how was training today?" I ask with my best brave face, being hopeful that she might get the memo and move the conversation on too, however that was not the case.

"Y/n I'm not stupid we aren't just dropping this conversation, your mums are so worried about this lack of eating and yes they've noticed, it's been going on for weeks. I'm worried too you need to look after your body how do you expect to manage to do lots of things without any energy kiddo. We all want you to be okay and healthy  especially your mums they care so much about you. You and your health and happiness is their number 1 priority and always will be, you need to talk to them because if you don't I will." I was taken aback by Leah's little speech but it also made me feel a mixed of emotions. Of course I felt bad that I was putting my mums through all this worry I didn't mean too which is why I kept it as secretive as I could, I felt angry that my mums and Leah knew. I was broken out of my thoughts by a hand on my shoulder, "talk to me y/n you can trust me."

I was in two minds, one part of me was screaming to talk to Leah and tell her everything and get help but the other part of me was still telling me I hadn't finished what I wanted to do. I wanted to be skinny, I wanted to be able to wear clothes without having my body being pointed at and laughed at. "Look Le I'm okay I'm happy and healthy so nobody need to worry about anything, I'm just a small eater people are like that you know It doesn't mean I'm not happy it just means I don't require a lot of food." I tell her in my most convincing voice trying to get her to buy it.

Leah pov
Y/n could continue speaking these lies but unfortunately for her I knew her, I could see straight through her and knew that everything coming out of her mouth right now was utter bullshit. "I don't believe you" I said whilst gently glaring at her understanding this conversation was getting nowhere. "Your not happy, nor are you healthy, I saw it sweetheart when you came out and showed me your new top, your not healthy which is making you not happy. Your underweight y/n and that's dangerous, this can get so out of hand, in such a short space of time. Your 14 you shouldn't worry about your weight. What makes you do it". At that point for the first time since we started this conversation well more like a one way conversation. She looked up at me tears now falling fast down her face as she looked at me with a sorrowful look. "I'm so sorry le it's just what I have to do" she said between the sobs I was confused, why did she have to do it? Surely no one was making her do it, they couldn't be this was a decision someone has to make by themselves, so what was the reason? Was there one? Thousands of questions spinning around in my head.

It was at that moment everything went pear shaped whilst I was trying to comfort y/n who was crying her eyes out, all of a sudden a "omg, mum look it's Leah Williamson the footballer" oh god this was the worse timing. Of course I love the fans and appreciate the support but right now  we needed the space, but as the child decided to shout out who I was in public restaurant we where now surrounded. I only needed to take one look at y/n to know we needed to get the heck out of here. "Omg it's y/n meadema, get a photo" was heard from the crowd, y/n looked up at me with panic written across her face, no one needed anyone to see a human in this state let alone take photos of it. I quickly rose from my seat and grabbed y/n's hand and dragged her out of nandos towards the car which wasn't too far away. On the way cameras flashing in our faces and questions and names shouted at us.

By the time we got to the car, y/n was having a full blown panic attack, she was grasping for air in between the consistent sobs. This is where I was out of my depth, yes I know the kid but not inside and out like her mums do. I know what she likes and dislikes, I know her favorite things, but I don't know this, I don't know how to calm her down, I don't know what relaxes her. She needed her mums, I sat with her for a little bit trying to regulate her breathing and calm her down, slowly rubbing up and down her back. The emotions finally took over her body and she cried herself into a deep sleep. This sleep was different, this sleep held a painful face and it didn't look peaceful or comforting, the best thing to do was take her home into an environment where she is safe to show her vulnerability, where she is loved unconditionally.

I messaged Beth and Viv to let them know we where on our way and lightly touched on the circumstance and I started driving her home.

Beth, Vivianne and Leah

Leah: hey guys just wanted to let you know that I'm bringing y/n home, over lunch time I tried to have the difficult conversation with her over her eating habits which caused a bit of emotion but unfortunately it all got escalated after we got surrounded by fans and media, causing y/n to have a panic attack i brought her back to the car to try and calm it all down but she just cried herself to sleep and is currently asleep in the car. She needs you guys right now, however I do need to have a conversation with you about y/n as have chatted about some stuff with her. xxx

Vivianne: oh le im so sorry that's happened, she's never had a panic attack before. The media are so cruel 😣 , bring her home le and we'll sort her out sounds like she needs her mums right now. Thankyou for helping her as much as you can, once y/n is okay I'll boil the kettle and we can all have the conversation. xx

Beth: my heart just breaks, when will they give her a break. Please just make sure she's ok and bring her home she needs us, and I need to know she okay thanks so much le xxx

General pov.
So that's what Leah did, she drove y/n home back to the love and comfort of her home and mums, it was a smooth journey back and as they pulled in the driveway two very anxious and loving mums stood waiting for there daughter to come back, wanting nothing more than to hold her safely in their arms telling her everything would be ok.

A/N
Wow 1511 words, sorry guys it's a long one, I feel like I'm really starting to get to grips with this writing.