Estella's Heart

EIGHT

Estella's mind was racing as she stood in the empty children's park down the street from her house. She was waiting for Noah to arrive to break the news to him, she hadn't even thought about what she was going to say but she knew she couldn't prolong this conversation. After everything that happened with Caspian yesterday, especially last night she knew there was no going back.

    She didn't know how he was going to react and take the news but it was something that had to be done. She just hoped this didn't make them enemies, the last thing she wanted was for things to be awkward. Especially with Caspian around, but who was kidding if she were in Noah's position there would be some key'd cars and slashed tires.

  While pacing around the bench where she was once seated, she could hear the sounds of Noah's familiar car rolling up the gravel. "This is it! No last minute bitching out, you've gots to do this! No more smiling in his face pretending he's someone he's not!" She said to herself, some petals that was.

"Hey beautiful, what's up?" Noah greeted smiling at the girl in front of him.

"Hey..." she greeted him with a less than enthusiastic smile.

"So what did you want to talk about?" He asked her sitting down on the bench.

"I wanted to talk about us...I-I think it's best we broke up. An-and it's not so that I can get with someone else or even about you, truth be told I don't know what I want right now. I'm split in multiple directions and don't know which way to go and it's not fair that you're neglected in the process, you deserve to be loved and treated fairly. You're a wonderful boyfriend but I'm just not the best girlfriend or right person for you right now." She spoke to him looking down at her feet.

   Estella stood there waiting to hear Noah's response, she couldn't bring herself to look him in the eye and see the damage she had done.

"Are you telling me the truth..?" Was all she heard, Estella looked up to see Noah's angry face.

"What?" She asked in confusion, surely everything she said was clear as day.

"Are-you-telling-ME-the-TRUTH!?" He asked, to say he was upset was an understatement. He was furious, he knew better than to believe whatever crap she spoke about herself. He knew this had all to do with Caspian, he knew there was something going on between them but he never thought she would actually leave him behind it. Maybe she didn't care for him as much as he thought.

"Noah, when have I ever lied to you?! Of course I'm telling you the truth! What kind of person do you take me for, if I didn't care about you I wouldn't be doing this!" Estella told him now starting to get angry herself.

She could understand that he's upset, but being angry with her and accusing her of lying to him was just ridiculous. He's never expressed any doubt or lack of trust in her until this, right after Caspian's arrival. Has he always been this insecure and she just missed it? It was true that yes, she did have strong feelings for Caspian but she never tried to act on those emotions intentionally. Especially in front of him, hell she tried not to do it at all but fate had other plans. That's part of why she's breaking up with him, she can't continue to treat him like this it's just not fair to herself, Caspian, or him.

"You're leaving me for him aren't you?" He asked her in a dull tone. 'Had he not just heard anything I said??'

"No Noah, I'm not leaving you for anyone. The last thing I want or need right now is another relationship." She answered truthfully, she didn't want a relationship she was too all over the place mentally. It wouldn't be good for her to try and jump into anything too soon.

"I can't believe you're actually doing this to me...I tried to ignore the way you looked at him and how he acted towards you but I guess that was the wrong thing to do. I'll see you around." Was the last thing he said before walking back to his car.