Joseph's Journal

May 1, 2015 Thursday

3:10 a.m.

I had woken up in the middle of the night for some reason. I looked over turned on my lamp, and grabbed my phone. On the 31 I had gotten Joseph's number and we had been texting a lot. Once I looked at my phone I realized I had gotten a text from Joseph.

*I can't sleep* is the text he sent me. I looked at my alarm clock and then at my phone. The time was 1 minute off but I think I woke up because he texted me. So I sent back a message.

*Really* I sent

*ya* he sent back.

*I'm sorry. I was fast asleep and then all of a sudden I just woke up! I checked my phone and I guess I woke up because of you* I sent him he had sent 2 messages from 12 a.m.

*Oh cool* He sends

*Yea. Why can't you sleep* I ask him.

*Idk I just can't*

*Really. I'm sorry babe* This was my first time calling him babe.

*It's ok baby* he tells me. I blush, he called me baby.

*I know it's okay* I didn't know what to say.

*Ok I feel weak* he says.

Our conversation lasts for a while. It was now 3:24 a.m. and I asked him.

*Okay. when you sent the message 'I can't sleep' did you think I wasn't gonna reply?*

*I had a feeling you wouldn't, but I told myself it's worth a try*

Before I get to far, on April 30 we hung out and we made out.

*Really? Well look at that my body woke up as soon as I got it. Well tell me what's on you mind*

*What's on my mind ok let's see you, the first time we made out, cars, the day we kissed, the new xbox I might be getting, the day that we kissed all day* He tells me. The day we kissed all day was yesterday.

Time had passed and I was getting tired so was he.

3:54 a.m.

*Love you Joseph* I send him

*Love you too Austin and a lot* he sends back, I blush

*I love you a lot to Joseph* I had a feeling he would smile once he got this text.

*I know*

*You do? Tell me how you know!* I send. I start to giggle and I stopped because I was worried my dad would hear me.

*We remind each other like every two minutes, plus we say it a lot* I didn't receive this text because I had passed out.

6:20 a.m.

*Buzz Buzz* 

My alarm clock told me. I waved my arm in the air until I found the off button. I turned my alarm clock off and checked my phone. I saw the last text that Joseph had sent me. Once I saw the text I got out of bed and undressed to just my underwear and bra. I had to go and take a shower. I walked to the bathroom and completely undressed and turned the shower on. I hadn't cried in forever. I opened the shower door and Washed my body and got ready for the day. My shower was over and I got out. I rapped my towel around me blow dried my hair and styled it. I ran back to my bedroom and put on a white and gold dress. I was happy and confident in my body. Once I was dressed I still had time to do things, so I went back to my bathroom and did my makeup.

"Austin come eat break-fast" yelled my dad.

I ran downstairs and put on my shoes. I wore my cream colored flats. I walked into the kitchen and the first thing I hear is...

"Oh my goodness, Austin you look amazing" Katrina told me, her smile reached ear to ear. She loved me but I didn't love her.

"Wow, Austin you do look beautiful" my dad told me. I loved my dad with all my heart.

I walked over and sat at the dinning room table. Katrina handed me my break-fast.

"Yummy, raspberry waffles. my favorite, thanks mom" I told Katrina, I never call her mom. It had been 4 years since my mom passed away and Katrina has been a part of my family for 3 of them.

"Oh your welcome sweetie" she tells me. I smile and she smiles back.

I finished eating and I walked over and grabbed my book bag from the closet. I looked at my phone and it was time to go catch the bus. I left the house and ran to the bus stop. I got on the bus and headed to school.

*Buzz Buzz* my phone vibrated. I looked at my phone. I got a text from Joseph.

*Hey Baby* He sent me. I sat in my seat blushing and smiling.

*Hey babe* I sent back to him.

*What are you doing?*

*Sitting on the bus playing some music*

*oh that must be so much fun*

*Yea especially because I'm texting you* I tell him.

*Hey I wont be at school today baby sorry*

*Oh okay...* I sigh and I feel like I'm hurt inside.

*It's okay just go to the gas station, don't go to school* he text's me. I sit and look at my phone with a  confused face.

*Why?* I ask him

*Just got to the gas station. Okay?* He texts back to me.

*Okay see you soon then* I text back.

Time had passed and I finally got to the school. After the bus left I started walking to the gas station. I had so many people looking at me. I finally got to the gas station. I couldn't find him and so I sent him a text.

*Were are you?* I ask him.

No respond.

All of a sudden I get tackled by Joseph. I crack up laughing. I roll over on my back and just lay there looking at the sky.

"How was that?" He chuckles.

"That was fucking hilarious" I tell him trying not to die of laughter.

I roll over on my right side and he is looking at me. I can't stop looking at his handsome sky blue eyes. I give him the look of 'I wanna kiss you right now'. He notices and he wraps his arms around me and pulls me into him and we kiss. We stop when I  pull away.

"I don't want to stop" I whisper under my breath. He looks at me and pulls me into him again.

"Alright" He whispers.

He pulls me in and our lips touch again. I love that feeling. It's the best feeling. When I pull away I look at his eyes. His eyes shine brighter then the sun like an icey blue blast.

"I love you" He whispers into my ear. I giggle

"I love you too Joseph" I whisper back to him.

Joseph's P.O.V

We just sat there. Looking into each others eye's. Her eye's were so green. Like spring time. She was so beautiful. So kind. Why does she have to be so fucking perfect. Because she is. So perfect. I reach my hand around her waist and pull her in. We are just laying in the partially wet grass. Who cares? We love each other and we can do what ever we want together. I realize she is wearing a dress. Damn is she beautiful.

"A dress" I say.

"Yes a dress, I felt confident in myself this morning" She replies back to me. I laugh.

"Well you should be, your beautiful inside and out" I tell her. Her smile reaches from ear to ear.

"Why thank you" She laughs. "And your handsome inside and out too".

I sit and just look her straight in the eyes. Damn she's way outta my league too. She just lays there looking at me. What's so special about me? I'm just a kid that came here from a little town in Wyoming.