Sweet As Knight

Talk Properly Later...

Now that his arms are wrapped around me, he leans closer to kiss me not caring about who's watching us but I'm too focused on him to care. When we part from the kiss, he takes my hand and leads us to somewhere more private.
"I still can't believe that you're here, sweetheart. How, what, how did you sort the tickets and stuff out?" He stumbles his words out, still in shock that I'm here. "Your brother. I can't believe I'm here either." I tell him truthfully. The way he's smiling warms up my heart so much.

He kisses me more, much harder and passionately. It's like he needs me to live. We're interrupted by Donnie. "Guys, sorry to intrude but we gotta get ready bro. Don't worry your girl will be looked after like a queen, with Katie and her companions." This time Jon kisses me on the forehead. "We'll talk properly later when we're in our hotel room, okay? I love you, and cheer me on will you?!" I nod with a smile on my face. "Good luck babe, and yes we will talk later." He takes my hand and leads me back to where Katie is, who is still conjoined with Jordan. They wouldn't need glue to hold them together as they're already like that, haha! I amuse myself with my thoughts. I make eye contact with Jordan and all of a sudden I feel the need to do something, I gesture to him so I let go of Jon's hand, leaving him confused. Katie's confused. My emotions are all over the place. Once I'm a few feet away from everyone else, I find myself wrapping my arms around Jordan. I can tell he's shocked by the delay in his movements but then he hugs me back. "Thank you, Jordan. I really mean it. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here. It means the world to see the smile on Jon's face, especially after the last few weeks so thank you." We part, slightly awkwardly and just spend a moment to gather ourselves again. "You're welcome, Kelly. We're all really glad that you're here; myself, Katie and most importantly Jon. You mean the world to my brother. I should really get going but I appreciate this, so thank you." He smiles, shyly, at me before going to kiss his girlfriend on her forehead then walking away with Jon and everyone. Jon blows me an air kiss and pats his heart to me as he walks away. I walk over to where Katie, Catherine and Katie's auntie are standing. The four of us chat and decide what to do in the meantime before the show starts. Unanimously we agree to get some food and drinks seeing as we hadn't eaten or drank since we were on the plane.
My eyes were glued to wherever Jon went on the stage. My heart is beaming with pride for him. Katie reaches out to me when Jordan puts his arm around Jon and we end up doing the same whilst pointing to the stage where the two brothers are. The energy and vibe is on another level tonight. I definitely feel much safer and more comfortable with us in our own sectioned off area to the side of the stage.

As soon as the show ends, we're escorted backstage although we did get stopped by a few fans who were wanting to say hi to Katie. She greeted them warmly and very friendly. When they asked for a photo with her, she was happy to say yes. I don't think they knew who I was but I just awkwardly smiled whenever they said hi. I was much more comfortable when we finally got backstage although I was surprised to hear Katie say "that was really sweet and nice but a little surreal. That's only because I'm with Jordan." She seemed at ease with the fans but it just goes to show that despite someone being friendly and smiling, it doesn't mean they're not anxious because they are but good at hiding it. As we wander towards the backstage entrance, there's people moving around pulling and pushing different equipment. Katie noticed a couple of clothes rails that have the band stage outfits hanging on them. Wow. "I forget that we were still just ordinary fans a few months ago so it's still surreal seeing all of this..." Katie nods in agreement like she understands what I mean.

Tiredness has started kicking in and I can't help but yawn. When I look at Katie, Catherine and Margaret; Katie's auntie, they're yawning as well. We're having a yawn fest when we're approached by the guys and they take the Mickey out of us because they've just done a full on show for two and a half hours whereas we've been doing not much, physically anyway. Katie glares at Jordan when she notices him laughing at whoever was taking the mick, he soon shuts when he sees the glare on her face which is hilarious. I'm glad to see that she wears the pants in their relationship and stops his head from getting bigger. Jon wraps his arm around my waist and we walk to where the bus is parked in the large gated yard area.

Now that we are finally alone in our hotel room, we got ready for bed and sat up so that we could have the chat that is needed. I feel nervous, not really sure what or how this might affect our relationship. "I'm really pleased that you are here. Seeing you in the crowd tonight totally made the last few weeks worth it. When me and Jordan were getting ready after the show, he shared the conversations that he's had with you. Why didn't you tell me what was going on in this pretty head of yours?" He asks; trying to understand me better. I go on to explain what has been going on in my 'pretty head' to the best that I can. His expression softens as he holds my hand. "You know I've suffered with anxiety problems myself and I would have tried to understand, but I also know how anxiety can affect how our thoughts can work against us. I love you and I've missed you so god damn much, Kelly." He kisses me with all that he has to give. We make love until we both fall into each other's arms and let ourselves doze off to sleep.