Biting Back (Completed)

Icecream

It's the dreaded next day. Why wake up when I know I'm going to feel like I'm dead. Why not just commit to the bit. My head is screeching in pain and my body refuses to cooperate. I still haven't been able to shower so my hair has become a matted mess within the span of just a few hours. I dread to look into a mirror and have to face the fact that I can't make a public appearance like this or I would scare the children and be nicknamed the forest gremlin that stumbled into town on accident while simultaneously also being the neighborhood hag. I just ran straight into the shower and ignored my reflection. I'm not ready to commit to the bit. I showered feeling refreshed. I looked down into the drain and saw there were still leaves coming out of my hair. I found another stick that had really been lodge in there. I couldn't even see it I just felt it stick out suddenly. I took about 2 hours to completely revamp myself. I put on some baggy pants and a lose t-shirt I wasn't sure was even clean but it doesn't matter anymore. I was only planning on going to the convenience store. I grabbed my wallet and phone ready to go. Luckily, the store is only around a block down from my street so I wouldn't have go make a long appearance in public today. I did my walk of shame to the store and got choclate and icecream. I was walking the street home when I saw my ex. Not yesterday's ex but like a few years ago ex. He would never recognize me now because I changed my hair color and got a hair cut I told myself so I wouldn't have to take a longer way home to avoid him. Obviously he would still recognize my face and stopped me to say hello. "You look like shit, -no offense." He told me. Thanks like I needed a reminder. "I was about to say the same to you, but I think you already know what you look like." I anwsered him snarkly and walked away. He called back after me and told me were neighbors now so I should treat him nicer. I stopped dead in my tracks and looked back with a devilish stare, looking straight through him and into his ugly soul. "What." I anwsered him back coldly. He smiled and told me he was moving in right across the street and recognized me walking to the store. "Fuck you." I said and just walked away ignoring everything he said. My bingo card is officially full. Do I get my reward now? I got home finally after a dreadful 15 minute walk to the store and back. I put on the saddest movie I could think of, Uptown girls. That movie always makes me bawl my eyes out of my skull and into a puddle full of tears and nostalgia for happiness. What happend to childhood innocence. When I had yet to count how many bad exes I have and how much money I'm racking in bills as an introduction to new possible victims of my dating life.
I got to my first crying scene, time to open my icecream that has already started melting making me cry even more because I don't have a freezer to save it so it's just going to helplessly melt away into a mess just like me. I too don't have anyone to keep me together and stop me from melting just like this delicious chocolate chip icecream. I added some more chocolate bar pieces for dramatic affect in the icecream. I really fucked up with this last relationship. He made me feel so special. I loved that douch bag. I fucking loved him one minute and the next I want to vomit thinking even just about his left toe. How dare he have such an ugly left toe. A disgrace to humanity and especially his wife. HIS WIFE. He was married the whole fucking time. Oh no, it's the scene that they go in the spinny ride and- I can't. I can't handle it. Why am I doing this to myself.