(( sorry for typos and the fact that this is all over the place my mind is a mess today ))
halsey was here today
i could have met halsey today ((without buying tickets to the smokw n mirrors shpw))
but instead,, i got to go to the zoo in 80 degree weather and then do nothing for the rest of the night.
dont get me wrong, i enjoyed the zoo. i hung out with my family and meg and i had a good time.
but i was just really upset that my mom wouldnt take us to halseys ((free)) acoustic show today. she wouldnt take us to the palace to wait outside for her at the busses, like she didnt care at all.
she had plans tonight so i get that she couldnt take us to the actual venue, but it would have been nice to go to the acoustic show and meet halsey.
it just makes me really sad, she doesnt understand how important these things are. halsey is pne if the only people that actually make me feel good anymore. besides my family and the, what?? three friends i have left?? besides them, halsey, 5SOS, and the other artists i love are the only things that make me genuinely happy. it takes a lot to make me happy, and it would be nice to meet someone who makes me happy and makes me feel that i actually matter.
so seeing people tweeting about how awesome the acoustic show and her set at the id show were, i got a little sad.
and the , to top off my already awesome day, when my mom got home, she td me that my youth pastor is leaving for another church.
this may seem dumb to some people but my chuch family is like am extended family. i love my youth pastor so much, and now that hes leaving i dont know what to do. i already lost an awesome worship team leader, and now my youth pastor is leaving??
so now im crying.
when i said goodnight to my dad, he asked me whar was wrong and i told him that it was nothing, and he kept asking so i just left because i knew if i told him about the halsey thing he probably wpuldnt understand, and i didnt want to start crying in front of him...which makes me deel bad bc my dad always makes sure im doing lkay but i never tell him exactly whats going on. i want to so bad, but i cant because im too fricken scared of him judging me ((ehich i know he wont)) or breaking down in front of him.
today is just not a good day
but im still going to write tattoo because i feel bad for taking forever to update and i cant sleep anyways because i feel like crap.
love you
Vanny
