Sodapop X Y/N Cade

Chapter 1

Y/N Pov*

"It's been 46 days since Dally's death. I'm still not over him. Why? Why couldn't I just get over him and move on with my fucking life?! Why did I have to be so damn obsessive?! What the fuck is wrong with me?!" I screamed, cussing myself out as I walked home from his grave. Well, not really home. Me and Johnny's parents hated us. Home was the Curtis' house or the lot. I tried holding back tears as I walked, kicking the pebbles around. I was mad at myself. Mad at this cruel world. I sighed. I hated myself and my life. I blew a smoke ring as I tilted my head up to the clouds. I could almost see him smiling down at me and feel the joy he once brought me as I fought back tears. Despite being Johnny's older sister, I was known for being both tough and tuff. I never cried in front of anyone. But now that I was alone, I let the tears flow.

Soda Pov*

I was worried for Y/N. She still wasn't back. She said she'd just visit Dal's grave but it's been 2 hours. "Hey Pone, 've you seen Y/N?" I asked from the couch.

"Nah" he mumbled, not leaving our room. I went into me and Pony's bedroom and sighed. He's been like this since the whole church incident. I hoped she would be back soon. I was kinda worried about her. She always shows up exactly when she said she would and she said she'd be here in 25 minutes. I stared out the window and saw the clouds form a beautiful pattern on the red, orange, pink, and yellow sky. It was real beautiful. Just like Y/N.

You see, I've kinda liked her for a while since Dal's death even though I knew it was wrong, I couldn't help it. I really did love her. I felt guilty as my mind got the better of me and I started dreaming of a future with her. I didn't deserve her. Dal didn't deserve to die and I feel like I'm taking advantage of his death somehow. I couldn't tell anyone. They would never understand. Well, except maybe Pony, but he had enough of his own problems with Dal's death. I was brought out of my intrusive thoughts by the door swinging open and slamming shut again. I looked over to see who it was and it was Y/N.

"Hey Y/N," I said and she didn't respond but just walked out the back door and sat on the porch. Something must've really been wrong cause she was never like this. She was usually like me and some Two-Bit when around the gang or tough, tuff and mean around others. In short, she's either always cheery or mean and tough. I went outside to go check on her.

"Go away!" she threatened me through gritted teeth. I left her alone. We all knew to leave her alone when she's in a mood. Only Dally could ever cool her off without having to take a trip to the hospital. I backed off slowly and went back inside.

"Look who we have here..." I mocked Two and Steve who were eating cake and watching Mickey.

"Shut your trap Soda!" Steve yelled, not taking his eyes off the TV.

"Soda, come help me set the table! And see if Pony or Y/N's gonna come to dinner," Darry's voice echoed through the house that felt empty. I quickly set the table before heading over to mine and Pony's bedroom.

"Hey, you gonna come to dinner?" I spoke tentatively, not opening the door. I knocked on the door. "Pony?"

"No." I sighed. He's really gotta start living again. I headed for the back door. I slowly propped it open with my foot.

"Hey Y/N, you out here?" I asked, looking around when I didn't see her.

"Yea, I'm out here," she replied "I don't wanna be though," she mumbled.

"You coming in for dinner?" I asked

"Eh...I guess," she followed me in. We both reached to open the door wider at the same time and for a brief second, so brief it almost didn't exist, our hands met and my fingers were laced over her hand that was gripping the edge of the door. I quickly pulled my hand back and she followed suit soon after. This time, I slowly reached forwards and pulled open the door, letting her in. I followed after her and caught the door behind us.