You're my dearest lie || Miraculous Adult

Chapter 27

Between the lines - Felix Räuber

Adrien

"This metric is disastrous, Monsieur Agreste, have you ever heard of hexameter? You are a disgrace to Ovid's work."

As if hypnotized, I looked at the Latin words on my sheet, which blurred before my eyes.

Why should I be able to recite a Latin work perfectly when nobody speaks the language anymore anyway?

Before, I have never had to think about it and had automatically got it right. Now I questioned everything I have mastered so far.

My life was being controlled by others, I was even more disgusted with my father than I thought, and Marinette had liked me since middle school and I could only confess my feelings to her on my third last day of school.

What kind of life was I actually living here?

When had it been that I had actually come to terms with it?

The private library room I was in, the endless corridors of the estate. Everything felt false and fake. As if I was living in a simulation. And for the first time in a long time, I didn't want to accept it.

After the cramming lesson, which had drained my energy for the first time, I finished my perfectly portioned rice and chicken. I listened with half an ear to Nathalie, who seemed quite nervous, but my mind was elsewhere the whole time.

After waking up, Plagg had to spend half an hour convincing me that I hadn't dreamed the encounter with Marinette.

No side effect of the pills.

Not a hallucination.

It had actually happened...

As soon as I was in the black Bentley on the way to my fencing lesson, I put my head down.

No matter what I did, the memory of last night played on a continuous loop in my brain. Above all, the moments when we got so close gave me dangerous goose bumps.

The way she had looked at me. I never thought I would experience that again one day. Not seeing the pain in her eyes that I had caused.

Of course she doesn't hate me.

She didn't know that my face was hidden behind Chat's mask.

I had to sigh.

Every part of my body longed to see her again, which I had invariably forbidden myself to do. But I had never considered that...

I immediately rejected this thought.

I couldn't do that. I couldn't approach her again as Chat just to satisfy my longing for her. I would be betraying her without scruples.

I tightened my jaw doggedly.

Even though the opportunity presented itself and I had a lot to make up to her, it was definitely the wrong way to go about it.

The vibration of my iPhone snapped me out of my trance. A message from Juliette.

"Hey, I'm free again, so if you want to let off some pressure, today would be the perfect day."

This made me feel sick to my stomach.

With a steadying breath, I typed my reply.

"I don't need it anymore. I've used up all my pills again because of you."