500 days of gerard | gerard way x female reader

7: helena. (WARNING: ABUSE AND SMUT‼️)

TW: ABUSE ABUSE ABUSE‼️

day 401

i was staring in the mirror; my cheeks all red and my eyes watery, when suddenly i heard loud banging at the door to my bathroom.

"open the fucking door y/n" gerard shouted, as he kept on banging on the door and also trying to open it with the handle.

"go away you psycho" i screamed, crying yet again.

"what did you just fuckin' call me?" he said angrily, as he kicked the door open. i screamed and flinched, walking backwards as he walked aggressively towards me.

"what the fuck did you just call me, tell me" he said, slapping my face hard. i cried even more, as i bit my bottom lip to stop myself from making any sound. i closed my eyes, and he put his hands on my waist.

"come on sugar.." he purred into my ear, as he snuggled in the crook of my neck. i squealed, flinching at the feeling of his hot breath touching my cold skin. my lips trembled, as i tried to not give in.

"hm?" he hummed attractively, and i blushed so hard.

"stop this.." i whispered, tired of his manipulative bullshit. he suddenly started kissing my neck gently, as he pulled my hips closer to his. he was moaning, and i just stood there, not knowing what to do in that moment.

"stop this!" i said loudly, and he chuckled to himself.

"you think i'm gonna listen to a stupid cunt like you?" he said angrily, still planting kisses on my skin. i was done with him. i kicked him harshly, which made him fall down onto the ground.

day 36

i was sitting in gerard's room; as always, we were thinking of a song for his new record. the song was gonna be about his dead grandma that he loved so much.

"alright so um.. i've got the lyrics pretty much done, but now i need the guitar and stuff.." he mumbled under his nose shyly as he looked into my eyes.

"can you sing the lyrics?" i asked, and he hummed while nodding. he took his notebook out, and started singing the song. it was called "elena", but then he changed it to "helena" - probably because of misfits. (THIS ISN'T REAL INFO BTW GUYS I JUST MADE THAT UP LMAO)

i smiled at him once he was done, staring into his doe hazel eyes. "it's great, but i would change the "goodbye" to "goodnight", what do you think?" i shared my opinion with him, as his eyes lit up.

"yes! that's brilliant!" he smiled with his teeth, as he scribbled stuff in his notebook.

"m'kay.. so for the guitar.. hm.." i said as i took his guitar in my hands, playing around with it; and that's when suddenly i figured out the intro.

"alright, sing the intro" i said, as i played the riff. it was a perfect match, it sounded so great.

after an hour of brainstorming - we finally figured the whole song out. now it was time for the guys to figure the other stuff out without us.

"so what'cha wanna do since we're done with the song?" i asked, as he thought about it for a second.

he took his sketchbook out, flipping pages around in order to find something.

"i thought about the music video to elena, and i think it would look great if i dressed up like this, and then a goth looking chick would come out of a coffin and dance around"

he showed me a drawing of i guess him? and a girl next to him. he had a black suit on with a red tie, and she had a black dress with a red belt thing and beautiful red roses. they both had red eye makeup and they pretty much looked dead; which is great.

"i think that's a good idea" i said, and he smirked to himself.

"thanks y/n" he looked into my eyes, as i looked into his. suddenly our faces got closer, and closer; and then our lips intertwined. we started full on making out, moaning into our lips, and playing around with each other's hair. he layed me down on the bed, and started kissing my neck as i put his sketchbook down on the foor gently.

after a few minutes of him giving me hickeys and kissing my neck; we started making out again.

TW: SMUTTTTT‼️‼️‼️‼️🚫🚫🚫🚫

"i wanna fuck you so bad y/n..." he whispered, making my cheeks blush and my (eyecolor) eyes widen. i cleared my throat while scratching my nose, and then i brushed his bangs to the side.

"do it then" i smirked, as sudden confidence hit me. he narrowed his eyes at me, licking his pink lips.

"you asked for it.." he whispered, going back to kissing my neck again.

after a few seconds he took my shirt off, and started making hickeys on my collarbones. after some time we ended up naked in front of each other, with his member aligned with my vagina.

he slowly thrusted in, and i moaned out loudly in satisfaction.

"you like that, huh? nasty bitch" he purred into my ear, making me blush as hell.

"mhm" i hummed, as my eyes rolled to the back of my head. he thrusted in and out so roughly, i was going crazy. he kept on hitting my g spot, which made me scream with pleasure.

"f-fuck" he moaned, biting his bottom lip, as his sweat fell from his forehead onto my bare chest.

"i'm gonna cum sugar.." he moaned, making my insides melt.

"me too baby" i moaned as well, as he put his forehead against mine and held it there.

after a few minutes of quick thrusting, i could feel his cock trembling inside of me. then suddenly, he took it out, and started stroking his dick and my clit at the same time.

"oh fuck I'm gonna cum" he moaned, as he came all over my stomach. soon i came too, and he layed down, exhausted from the whole act.

"i love you" i said, and an awkward silence filled the room.

and that's when my overthinking started.

"did he only want to fuck me? did he just use me?" stupid questions filled my mind, making me furrow my brows in confusion.

whatever.