When Devils Smile

Twenty Two

Devon's POV:

I was a fool, I was a moron, an idiot. No, I was more than all of those things combined. I destroyed the one thing that made me happy, I destroyed him. The one thing that was too precious to break even further, and I shattered him into a million pieces.

Because apparently, that's what I'm best at.

When Levi stormed out after finding out the truth, I chased him down the street in bare feet. I gave up when I knew I was chasing after a ghost, thin air that would just pass right through my fingers because I had sucked out any soul he had left.

Any goodness, any joy.

It's all gone because of me. He was right. The kids at my school were right, I'm nothing but a bore. A black void spreading and taking up space.

I sigh to myself, no use in feeling sorry for myself. I did this, no one else. I messed with the one good thing I had going, and now he's gone.

And I can't picture what he's going to do.

Issy tried comforting me, but I told her to leave me alone. Of course, it wasn't her fault. Levi deserved to know the truth. He was bound to find out in the end. In a way, I'm glad he found out now, before anything got too serious.

Granted, we had just gotten together. We were a new couple. It was serious, it is serious? But I'm just glad he knows now before it's too late, too late to go back.

Because surely I can fix this right?

Everything I said was the truth, me and Issy made a plan to exact our revenge for tearing our relationship up. Hurting us the way he did, I forgive him now and so does my sister but back then I was vengeful. I wanted him to hurt for toying with Issy's feelings, for making her not trust me and think I would cheat like that.

I don't regret our plan, only because it brought Levi and I closer. Otherwise, I don't think I would have spoken to him, not after what he did. I don't think I would have given him a chance. Even if it was all part of some master plan, I'm glad I did it.

I'm just sorry it turned out the way it did.

Everything was fine, the plan was coming together. Until I went and fell, I fell for him. Quick and easy, just in a blink of an eye. When I got close to him I wanted to originally expose him.

Expose his depest secrets and destroy him, but then I realised I liked talking to him. That I understood him and in a way he understood me, and then I fell. More like plummeted into his spiderweb of charm, he has a lot of it I've got to admit.

He's brave, he's smart- far too smart if you ask me. He's handsome, he's got these eyes that tell a story, a story you just could never comprehend. Because how can anything harm this man? This beautiful kind man, because he was. Underneath all the hate and the hurt he was a nice boy, just trying to get by in the world of monsters.

He grew up with one, one raised him as his own. So now I see why he's the way he is, why he did the things he did and does. I don't blame him now, I get it. Of course he's responsible for his actions, but he never was taught what was right and wrong.

And now I've broken his trust even further and I hate myself for it.

I fiddle with my phone wondering wether to call him or not, it's been a few weeks. Nearing one month. I spoke to Valentine about it, who is pissier than ever. Since Levi found out Val knew he's iced his roommate out, which Valentine told me. More like yelled at me for and blamed.