not strong enough~ walker scobell

~ six

the next morning in xóchitl's basement at 9:00 am

i woke up to the feeling of warmth on my face. the sunlight had peaked in through the small window in xóchitl's basement and went right on my face. i sat up and looked over and xóchitl then at walker. both where still sleeping with xóchitl turned towards brady and brady facing the wall but walker was facing me.

i stood up and went to the bathroom washing my face and doing my skin care.

when i came back i was met with brady and xóchitl cuddling.

"ew my god get a room" i said while putting my things back into my bag.

"yea yea" xóchitl responded sitting up in her sleeping bag and stretching.

"do you have any breakfast or anything" i asked unplugging my phone from its charger.

"ummmmm no i don't think so but i can run out and get something " she said starting to get up.

"wait isn't there a bagel place down the street" i asked.

"yea why" she responded starting to grab some of the trash from the ground.

"i can go get the bagels for everyone on my own. um i just need to clear my head ya know" i said putting my hair up.

"oh ok yeah sure" she responded walking the trash over to the trash can.

" ill be back soon" i said starting up the stairs.

" see ya" she said walking towards the bathroom.

once i made it to the front door i had realized that my jacket was in my dads car from the night prior. i looked over to the coat rack and saw walker coat and contemplated putting it on.

"he let me where it last night one mornings fine" i through in my head putting on his jacket. i laced up my shoes and started for my walked to the bagel shop.

last night was weird. scratch that yesterday was weird. me and walker started the day with fighting and ended the day with him cry in my arms. kinda on brand with my history of friendships but still shocking. i truly did mean everything i said last night i mean i do feel bad for him and i don't think that lauren deserves him but was he being honest. i mean of course he was but what person shares that many of their deepest thoughts with somebody they met days prior.

me.

i've done that.

i did that.

i told him one of my deepest secrets last night about my writing.

god.

why did i do that?

once i arrived at the bagel shop and ordered some bagels and some coffees. i sat at a table near the pick up counter so i could hear if my order was ready and sat on my phone. while scrolling on instagram i felt a tap on my shoulder. i turned around and came face to face with lauren.

" oh hello" i said looking up and her and her friend from the day prior at lunch.

" are you cameron" lauren asked pulling up a empty chair to the table leaving her friend standing.

" um yea who are you" i said acting as if i had no idea who she was.

" oh im lauren walkers girlfriend" she responded with a sick smiled plastered across her face.

"oh thats why your so familiar but didnt you guys break up or something" i asked acting stupid.

"yea but we are getting back together soon just a rough patch" she responded sipping from her drink.