Fourteen
Three years flew
And my age glued
Faced to someplace anew
The bed sets blue
I'm inside a cage,
Feel like I need a mage
A harbor, sometimes in page
Suppressing my inside rage
I do feel like I'm lost
From my haven most
Like I gambled with a ghost,
And I don't know what it costs
My age stucked in fourteen
I'm now seventeen,
Turning eighteen
But still in frighten
Like my world stopped revolving
But it changed, in a new way of loving
The alter, that's still covering
The voices are discouraging
I'm locked inside nowhere
I think I lost the power
While my anguish tower
These days are lower
I weep amidst for help
Try to leave what I once kept
The countless night I slept
Why holding my breath
I don't want to lose myself
Just because I feel left
Two years went in rift
Should I consider it a gift?
I still feel like a fourteen-year old
Wandering in a place so bold
The two years that help me mold,
Still feels like I'm in uphold
I'm not ready for grown-up,
I'm still growing up
Don't know what it's all about
It feels so abrupt
I'm still fourteen, I believe
I stucked there, it relieved
The chaos it secretly gives
I just want to be what I want to live
