DEAN POV
Cas' eyes widen and have a glossy look to them, I'm going to guess he knows what I'm going to ask him about.
I stare deeply into his eyes, cas, you know I still love you, so much and almost nothing brings me more joy than seeing you here now after.. That incident."
I start to choke up and take a second to breathe. I continue to stare down at my lap, "cas why? Why would you leave like that? So quick?"
Once I finish I look back up at him with tear filled eyes. "You brought joy to my life, every day. And you ripped it away the exact moment I saw you lying motionless at our spot. I haven't spent a second not wishing you were here, that I could take what I said back. But.. You're dead. And I made the mistake to try and follow you." I take a second, bite my lip and wipe the water drops running down my face.
I pull my legs up to my chest and look at myself on the bed.
"Please. Tell me why."
But when I look back at him, he's vanished. And at that point, was when I fell apart. It felt like he reached inside me and tore my heart out while he left.
I fall to the floor, on all fours, pounding the ground with my fist and screaming. "WHY!? WHY DO YOU HATE ME?"
I rest my head on the floor and let the tears fall to the floor from my eyes. "I don't deserve you do I? I don't deserve anyone. I caused you to do that to yourself and this is my punishment. I won't make it out of here will I? That mistake led up to so many more and that means I have to pay. My punishment is the hurt I feel for leaving everyone. I hurt Sammy, and that's the last thing I wanted."
And that's all it takes.
I lie on the floor, weak and broken. "I'm nothing now.."
As of now, I feel nothing, a complete absence of emotion. But I still know I'm hurt.
I take a few minutes to just stare while on the floor before I decide to get up and sit in a chair.
I stare at myself again, It looks like I'm dead. Even though I'm not, even if I wish to be. "I finally broke. I'm a glass that's been thrown to the floor and shattered into a million pieces."
I take a deep breath, "and I know no one will fix me."
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Hells Loss (sequel to Falling for Hell)
FanfictionHahahaha I am back my people. In a sequel to falling for hell! This discription is useless. Other than READ FALLING FOR HELL FIRST. THEN THIS. This will be a short sequel to it so people won't be so upset for how the last one ended. So, this will be...
