Hells Loss (sequel to Falling for Hell)

Chapter 14: part two

CAS POV

I need to calm down. I need to. God this is all so weird. How can this all be true? How can it all be just a coincidence? It can't be. And god why can't I get this feeling out of my stomach? What is it? I have all these conflicted feelings and I don't know what to do with them.
I take a deep breath and once I look into his eyes it just calms me. I feel it, something in my chest. There is something about him that is just, right. calming.
I stay silent looking in his eyes for a few seconds, and then pick up the courage to ask him, "Dean.. Can I ask you something?"
"Sure thing, what is it?"
I can hear the concern in his voice.
"I.. Um.. Are.. You, maybe, not straight?"
He looks shocked, his eyes had widened and he backed up from me slightly. Maybe this was it. I asked too soon.
I screwed up
I screwed up
I screwed up
"Why would you ask that?"
I stay silent.
"Cas?"
I stay silent again
He sighs and slides away from me a bit.
"I'm sorry for asking.."
"It's alright. It's fine. It's just a weird question to ask so quick."
"I know. I don't even know why I asked"
"Well, I'm not straight."
"Oh"
I feel the butterflies rise in my stomach again.
"I'm not either."
I don't know why I said that.
We stay silent for a few minutes, a few very long minutes.

DEAN POV

Why would he ask that? Does he like me or something? Is he catching on that he wasn't just a friend during the coma? Maybe I should try and change the subject.
"So.. What kind of music do you like?"
"I like some pop punk, some post hardcore, little bit of heavy metal, and there's this really good acoustic artist I like."
"Okay, name your 5 favorite musicians or bands."
"Oh that's easy, I love Saywecanfly, Panic at the disco, fall out boy, black veil brides, and Pierce the veil."
"That's a pretty good variety. I'm more into the classic rock."
"Classic rock is pretty good too."
We keep talking about music for a while, it's always something that has interested me, and after all this, j found out it really interests him too.
And through all of this, I'm glad I'm getting to know him, the real him. I'm also seeing how similar he is to what he was like during my coma, and that's honestly quite terrifying.