Hells Loss (sequel to Falling for Hell)

Chapter 9

DEAN POV

Everything is black, there's a loud ringing in my ear. I try to move my body but I I feel move are my fingers. I slowly open my eyes, it takes a lot out of me but I manage. Once they are open I slowly look around the room. I notice I'm in a hospital room, an empty hospital room. I look down and see how many tubes they have me hooked up on, damn. I didn't think there could be this many in one body. I look around and find the remote, I use all my strength to reach over and grab it and to push the help button. And only a few moments later a nurse comes rushing into my room. "You're awake?!"
I get confused, "uh.." I Clear my throat, "yeah, why? It's only been a few days, right?"
"No sir, it's been 4 months."
"WHAT. No way, there's no way."
I sit there shaking my head, there's no way it's been 4 months.. Wait. What's happened? Is Cas alive? No. What am i thinking. It's not the past. He's dead. I've just been in this hospital from my suicide attempt for 4 months. Yeah.
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It's been 3 hours since I woke up, Sam aNd bobby  made it here And have been talking to me a bit, trying to catch me up with everything. There's nothing major I'm hearing about. "So yeah, that's it. Since the accident."
I look back up at them, "And I'm sorry guys. About all this. I wasn't in my right mind."
"What are you talking about boy? How was this your fault? A kid in your school threw you against some lockers way too hard and it caused all this."
"Wait. What?"
It takes me a minute to realize everything. Does that mean.. Everything that happened with me and Cas.. Wasn't real? I know I've seen him around school once or twice.
"Where's cas. Where is he?"
"Who?"
"CAs!"
"Who the hell are you talking about?"
"Damnit, when do I get out of here?"
"They said they'll let you out in the morning, make sure you are stable."
"No, I need out now. I need to go. Please. Get me out."
I start to get out of bed and bobby gets up to stop me. "Seriously kid, you need to stay here."
I let out an annoyed sigh, and sit back down. "Is my baby okay?"
Bobby nods at me, and I look over at Sammy. "You doing alright?"
He nods at me, "hey Dean, did you dream while you were out?"
And that's when a wave of pain hits me. "Um.. Yeah. It was all too real."
His eyes light up, "can you tell me your dream. Please?"
I tense up and take a deep breath.
"Sure Sammy."
I smile at him and start the story of how i fell for hell.