I found out about raven 4 days ago. We've been together for 3 years!!
I love Raven too much.
"God! God, please tell me why!!" I don't even believe in God.
She knows I have nothing other than her. I've gotten hurt from time to time, and she knows about all of it.
Raven killed me.
Not literally...I'd kill her first.
"Woah! I'm tweaking." I'm tweaking.
I'm tweaking?
"I'm fucking tweaking!!"
I escaped the crowds then fled into the gym. Avoiding my teachers because I've been skipping class this week. My grades have been dropping, but what does it matter.
It's quiet in the bleachers. Having it empty before practice is somewhat soothing. I'll come here to calm my mind when I'm overwhelmed with school or Raven.
The bleachers are painted crimson which complements the eggplant colored basketball court in this gym.
My cousin, Zee, is the one who let me know about Raven. "I wanna die." I never wanted to believe him until I was able to confirm it.
My urges want to smash my head on the pavement. "Naw this bitch got me fucked up!!"
Basketball is slowly killing me, I can't get playtime or any acknowledgment from the coach. It's been overwhelming me since I came to college. I practiced 10 years to make it here just for it to be pointless.
Now there's Raven. I'm not ready to leave either of them.
They're all I got.
She said my looks could kill, then she destroyed my loneliness. Now it's back and I can't find happiness.
Wallowing in drugs and emotional discomfort is all I can do to cope. "Fuck no bruuuh!" I'm so lost now.
"Why doesn't she love me anymore?" I gave it all I could give, just been smoking backwoods.
Blood rushing!!
When I saw it my life was hit with a flash flood. I know I've been drowning.
Fist clinching!!
I don't want to live if I'm not with her...I love her.
"I can't keep thinking like this."
What I felt with Raven was special. I never felt it with anyone else.
I'm really drowning, but I'm in the clouds.
"I'm too high. Aha. Ahaha!" I'm empty.
CrrreeEEAAAAKK!!
"Damn! That loud ass door!" who's coming from the back door?
I'm heated.
Jamar Blicks is our school's star athlete.
I'm benched. I don't get minutes anymore. He has all the money, designer, charisma, and gets the most media attention on the team.
...
He fucked my girl.
Raven cheated on me with Jamar.
"Damn." Why does it have to be like this.
"I'm bussin everyone's ass today!! Is that Isaac!? Haha! Don't guard me because yo ass jus gon cry like last time." I hate Jamar.
Fuck. Him!
Wait! Didn't Raven left the way he came from.
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RomantizmAn American novel series written by lunedigo. With an aesthetic to draw attention, Isaac struggles his days in college. His mental health is challenged and beaten consistently. Dealing with his girlfriend cheating on him, Isaac tries to push through...
