Adams Poems

"Daddy's Girl"

When I was a little girl
I was your princess
If mommy didn't pick me up when I asked I ran to you crying
When you kept falling asleep cause' you were tired I would put a blanket over you and kiss your forhead
When you'd yell at me and threaten to hit me I'd forgive you and we'd watch our movies
Whenever I wanted, you would take me to see my friends because you didn't want me to be alone
Whenever I wanted something at the store you'd get it for me because you wanted me to be happy
When I'd see mommy hit you I'd cry cause' you were getting hurt
I was your princess
And I loved you
Now I'm a big girl
And I'm not your princess
Because now I know why mommy wouldn't pick me up
Because if you knew you'd call her and threaten to call the cops if she came
Now I know you'd always be falling asleep because you were shoving a needle in your arm and pills down your throat
Now I know not to forgive somebody so easily, so much
Now I know you only took me to see my friends is because someone they knew could give you your drugs
Now I know you'd only buy me things and take me places because you were trying to buy me off to see you as the "fun" and "better" parent
So I'd choose and love you more
Now I know the only reason mom would hit you would be because you hit her first
I'm not your little "money maker girl" anymore
I'm someone else princess
And he doesn't make me feel like if I moved my hand away because I didn't want you to touch me that I'd get hit.

-Adam L Ventura