Taylor x Y/n imagines

Finding out about ypur past relationship

Possible TW: drug use but I put a TW before it comes up and when it's over

Taylor POV

The girls and I were out celebrating Selena's new TV series at a club. Y/n had a 4 am scene to shoot on set so she had to this outing out.

I left the dance floor and headed to our table to order a drink.

I scanned the menu and decided I'd order a water and martini when someone approached the table I looked up and recognized it to be Renee Rapp.

"Hey Taylor how's it going" the blonde adjacent to me asked.

"Yeah it's really good, we all came out here for Sel to celebrate her new show" I said as she nodded and looked back at my friend group.

"Oh wow that's huge, hey do you possibly have a second for a quick question" Renee asked as I shook my head and waved for her to come sit down

"I don't really know how to ask with it sounding weird" she started as I looked at the blonde to continue as a sense of nervousness clearly took her over. "Do you and y/n possibly need like a 3rd" she asked as I looked at her confused before laughing not understanding what she meant

"A Third what? Like house?" I asked as Renee shook her head

"I what? No I meant like in your relationship I know y/n use to be in an open relationship but you don't seem like the type to be open to that but I wasn't sure and I....and I clearly can tell that you didn't know and I should go" Renee said getting up to evade this awkward situation

"WE don't do that" I said as she nodded her head getting the message

I walked over to the group and told them I was heading home early. I called my driver and the whole ride home I couldn't believe what I just heard. Is y/n looking for someone else to join our relationship. What did Renee mean when she said y/n use to be in one. I have so many thoughts flowing through my mind at the moment I don't know what to think. All I could think about is why y/n would keep this from me.

After 30 minutes of overthinking on the ride home we finally got to y/n and I's house. I bid my driver a goodnight before making my way in. It was pretty early so y/n should definitely still be up and once I walked in this kitchen I spotted her making a sandwich

"Hi baby you're home early" y/n beamed as she placed her knife in the mayo jar and ran over to me slinging her arms around my neck and looking up at me with her lips puckered

I lightly gave them a peck before pulling away as y/n looked at me with a small pout

"What happened" y/n asked softly holding my hand

"Why didn't you tell me you use to be in an open relationship or something, do you know how stupid I felt when someone came up to asking if we needed a third" I tried to refrain from yelling but my voice did raise a bit.

"I didn't think it was important, I'm sorry I didn't tell you." Y/n said lowly as her eyes watered at my small out burst. I've never yelled at y/n or even slightly raise my voice at her when we'd get into 'fights' we'd always just talk it out. I feel bad for making her cry but I need to know what's going on here.

"Are you happy with us" I asked as she looked at me like I was crazy.

"Of course I am Tay, I've never been happier than when I'm with you...why would you even ask that" y/n asked, confusion was written all over her face as I let out a sarcastic scoff

"Because apparently everyone knows you were in some sort of open relationship or throuple..whatever the fuck it was and they're coming up to me asking me if we need a 3rd, do you know how embarrassing that is, I had no clue and had to find out from a random person" I was seething with annoyance and anger from this whole situation. I know the situation isn't really calling for this reaction but I'm scared y/n isn't happy with just me. My reaction when I'm hurt or scared to be hurt is to strike first, and this is definitely where my fight or flight instincts are taking over.

"I- Taylor" y/n called out for me as I stormed up stairs get a bag to pack. I can't deal with this right now. I'm pretty sure my girlfriend is putting the word out that I don't satisfy her and is looking for someone to join our relationship, but jokes on her...I think we're over

"Baby, let me explain- what why are you packing a bag" y/n's voice was shaky as I stuffed things into my bag.

"Because whoever you're looking for to join our relationship can deal with this, I'm done" I spoke in a matter of fact tone.

"Taylor just stop, I'm not looking for anyone to join our relationship. Are you kidding me do you not know by now how possessive I am of you. I don't know who told you what but tay im begging you to just hear me out" y/n cried out as tears streamed her face and her hands trying to stop me from putting things in my bag

"Ok" I mumbled before cupping her face gently and brushing y/n's tears away with the pad of my thumb before whispering another ok

TW: mentions of drug use

"I- I didn't tell you about that time of my life because it's embarrassing Taylor. I- when I was dating Sara this girl from my hometown we weren't in the best shape and I was smoking and doing other drugs I wasn't in the best mindset. My career was taking off I was booking all the biggest shoots but I was still just a shell of a person. I was at a shoot and lily rose came up to me and asked me out and I said no because I had a girlfriend at the time anyways I told Sara about it and she convinced me that we should try it, it didn't stop after that every time anyone showed interest in either one of us and Sara knew about it she'd convince me to agree and at that time I was so fucked up I agreed Because she was the only thing I had that felt normal I wanted to keep it that way so I just went along with it. I'll admit it was fun sometimes but it wasn't really my thing. When I finally told her she got mad and called me boring...it was a whole argument but we ended up breaking up because of it. After I stopped partying and the drugs I realized that I found it fun because the person I was with didn't fulfill me. I wasn't happy in any sense after the 1st 2 years of our relationship which was just when i started modeling...every time I got in a relationship with someone new they'd find out about it and want to have an open relationship or threesomes and that wasn't me...it hurt me because I felt like I was never enough for them because that how I felt in my past experience. Or they'd think I was disgusting or some type of cheater and suddenly break up with me after finding out. So when I met you and knew I was in love with you I promised I'd never tell you because I didn't want you to leave me. I didn't know that rumor was still going around and I'm sorry that I drug you into this tay I really am. I know how important your reputation is to you...I-I I'm sorry I never told you but I promise you Taylor that I haven't been seeking someone to come and join us or anything. I'm sorry I embarrassed you" y/n spoke with emotion so strongly evident in her words. At the end she couldn't even finish and began to cry.

TW OVER

I felt like a bitch about this whole situation. Immediately I pulled her into my arms as she cried into my shoulder. I gave her a soothing kiss on her head.

"Hey, hey it's ok" I whispered my heart ached, the girl I love is sitting here crying in my arms and I was the reason. I could tell this was a topic y/n hated. When we first dated she said she was in a rough space when she started her career but I thought that meant maybe bills because of how she made it seem when I asked about it.

"I'm sorry ok, I don't care about my reputation. I just- I'm sorry I got so upset ok" I said as she nodded

"I didn't mean to embarrass you T, I really am sorry" y/n's broken voice whispered as her heartbroken eyes looking into mine. The devastating look on her face broke my heart.

"You didn't, I was just upset. I could never be embarrassed of you my love, you were vulnerable with me and I appreciate that. I'm not leaving you ever, I'm sorry I...I need to control how my words shoot to kill when I'm mad." I apologized as she nodded

"I promise Taylor, I don't need anyone but you that time in my life is way past me. I'm sorry people are gonna think we're in an open relationship because of it. I was so stupid I-" y/n began to rant as I shook my head before cutting her off

"Please never apologize for your past, it's what makes you I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions. Youre nit  your past...I love you m'kay" I gave my girl a small smile as she nodded causing me to do the same and pull her in for a kiss