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chapter fourteen: protecting you

I slur awake. My heads pounding. Where am I? I roll over and see hospital beds beside me. The last thing I remember is meeting Daniel. Daniel. Fuck. As I'm sitting up in the bed, Max walks in with a coffee.

"Morning Mels" he says sighing and sitting beside me. "What happened?" I ask taking the coffee from him. He turns away from me. "Max?" I ask confused. He sighs, "You saw Daniel." He said almost annoyed. I know he doesn't like him but it can't of been that bad. "And?" I ask confused. He scans my eyes, "Melody you got pissed and nearly overdosed on drugs." He says bluntly. Oh fuck. "No I didn't your lying" I say. I look down to see a tape in my arm. "What's this?" I ask him. He looks down, "Fluid to keep you alive Melody." He says. Oh fuck fuck. "Where's Lando?" I ask scanning the room.

Max doesn't reply. "Is he annoyed with me?" I ask him. Max still doesn't reply. "He's such a baby nothing even happened" I say annoyed. Max sighs, "Melody. You told him to fuck off and you were done with him" he says. Oh. "I did?" I say confused. "Yeah." He replies. I take a sip of the coffee, "You do regret it right?" He says. "Uh yeah sure" I say taking another sip. "Melody" max says sighing. "What?" I say pretending to act confused. "You can't push him away." He says. I laugh, "Fucking hell Max I'm not pushing him away." I say rolling my eyes. Max gets up, "Where are you going?" I ask him. "Lando's waiting in the lobby. Do you want me to tell him to come up or not?" He asks me. I nod slowly. "Alright I'll go get him" Max says walking out.

I don't really want to see him to be honest. But Max is already worried about me id rather not make it more suspicious with Lando. I lay down into the bed reach down for my blanket Max must of brought with him. I wrap it round and put the Tv on. Lando opens the door gently and walks inside with flowers in his hand. For fuck sake. "Morning." He says standing by the door. I look to him and then back to the TV, "Morning" i say casually. "How are you feeling?" He asks me. I force a smile, "Fabulous thanks" i lie. He sighs. "What?" I ask him. He walks over to me and puts the flowers on the side, "I'm just trying to be here for you Melody and you're not even trying to be comfortable around me. I don't know what I've done" he says sitting beside me on the bed.

"Uh nothing. I'm fine" i lie. He looks to the door. "Can you get off my bed" i say rudely. I can't have Lando close to me right now. He turns to face me, "Do you still want to be with me." He asks me scanning my eyes. I don't not want to be with him i just don't want him up my ass looking after me like a baby 24/7. "You're not even replying instantly anymore Melody." He says rubbing his forehead. "Lando I do want to be with you but i just wish you and Max would give me some space and not treat me like a fucking baby" i say throwing my hands down. "So the reason you went out last night and nearly killed yourself is because me and Max cared too much about you?" Lando says getting up. I sit up in the bed. "Baby what do you want me to do. I find out something life changing, I have to see your reaction. All I want is to comfort you" he says visibly upset. I sigh, "This is what I mean Lando. Comfort me? I don't want fucking comforting I want to forget it happened" i shout at him.

Lando scoffs, "So what? Every time I don't react the way you de want me to. You're gonna go off and do drugs with some fucking low life. Thats not you Melody" he says shaking his head. I get up in bed, "YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW ME LANDO. YOU KNOW SOBER ME. NOT BROKEN ME. IF YOU LOVE ME? LOVE ALL OF ME NOT JUST THE PUT TOGETHER BITS" I say shouting at him. He stops in his tracks, "I love every part of you Melody. What I don't love is dragging you unconscious from a dodgy club. Or you telling me you hate me and I should fuck off. I don't love that." He says. I swear I can see tears in his eyes. I feel bad. "Exactly Melody. You wouldn't understand what's it's like to find someone lifeless infront of you. To sit and worry by a front door for their well being not even knowing where they are. For their brother to tell you they were a fucking drug addict and they're hanging out with the person who made them like that" he says choking bad his tears. My heart sinks.

I didn't even realise I've put him through that. "Daniel's not all that bad" I lie. Lando scoffs, "Not all that bad?" He says gesturing. I sink back into the bed, "Then just breakup with me. I'm broken Lando. I'm too much of a fucking mess" I say turning on my side. I don't hear him for a few minutes and then I feel his presence next to me. As soon as I feel him sat beside me, I jump up and hug him tight round the waist. He picks me up so I'm sat in between his legs, wrapping his arms around me. "I'm sorry" I say holding back my tears. "I know Melody. I know" he says kissing my head. I cuddle into him and he holds me close for the rest of the day until I'm released from the hospital.

We walk through the hospital, Lando holding my bag. "Can't wait to go home" I say skipping about. He smiles, "I'll definetely be happy to not be sleeping by myself tonight. Sleeping at all" he says yawning. I turn to him, "You didn't sleep?" I ask. He shakes his head and yawns, "No. I will tonight though" he says. "But Lando. It's race day tomorrow." I say. He nods, "I know but I had more priorities." He says bluntly. He can't blame me for not sleeping. Oops. I feel my phone vibrating so I look down to my phone.

Lando wraps his arms round my waist, "Let me see" he says kissing my cheek. I hide my phone away. "It's just my mum." I lie. "Your mum?" He asks confused. I don't speak about my parents. I don't like them. "Uh yeah Max must've spoken to her." I lie again. Lando shrugs and holds me close. "Babe I'm gonna go out tonight quickly" I say confidently. Lando laughs. "What?" I say confused. "No baby you're in with me tonight" he says smiling against my cheek. "Lando I'm going out for like an hour and then I'll be right back I promise" I say trying to loosen his grip from me. "Not tonight my love." He whispers in my ear. Fuck sake. I quickly type back to Daniel that i cant tonight but I'll see him tomorrow. I see Daniel's sent me a photo.

He's typed, "Please comeeee" and a photo of him there. Fuck sake. Lando catches what I'm reading letting go of my and snatching my phone out my hand. "Daniel" he says gritting his teeth. For fuck sake. I groan and continue walking down the hallway. He takes my hand and pulls me back to him, "Why you seeing him tomorrow Melody?" He asks me. Fuck. "I'm not I'm lying" I say. Lando shakes his head, "I know you're not because you forget I know exactly where you were last night." He says scanning my eyes. I groan. "So Max has told you about Daniel then" I say sucking my teeth. Lando nods. "Don't try this with me Melody. He's sweet because he's your brother. I'm your boyfriend. I'll do whatever I can to protect you" he says staring in my eyes. Ok but butterflies. That was so attractive. "Fine" I say half joking half serious.

"Good girl" he whispers in my ear. Right that's it I'm gonna die of butterflies if he doesn't stop.