"Mein yeh shadi nahi karungi aur tum log mujhse zabardasti nahi kar sakte."
Murtasim removed his gaze from the file he was looking.He put it on the table and looked at Haya.
"To thik hai shadi nahi kar sakte to nikal jau is ghar se.Kyun ki jo harqat tumne kiya hai uske baad mein tumhe hargiz is ghar mein bardast nahi kar sakta.Tumhare pas do option hai Haya shadi kar ke izzat se is ghar se ruksat ho jau warna dakke marke nikal di jauge.Aab tum hi faisla karo tumhe izzat chahiye yaa humesha ki tarha zalil hone ka shok hai."
Saying this Murtasim take out the file from the table and left from the living room.
Haya dropped the tears and Meerab stands in front of her.
"You know what Haya mein zabardasti shadiyon ki khilaf hu.Mera dil tumhari madad karne ki chahat rakhti hai lekin mein tumhari irade aur niyat ke bare mein bhi pura wakif hu.Tumhari jo pagalpan hai na woh tumhe kabhi apna ghar basane nahi dega.Aur mein tumhari is pagalpan pe sath nahi de sakti."
Haya clenching her fist.She gritted her teeth in anger and said;
"Meri mohabbat ko pagalpan maat bolo.Tumhe andaza nahi hai mein Murtasim se kitni mohabbat karti hu."
"Kash thora sa mohabbat khud se bhi karli hoti to shayed roz roz khud ko zalil nahi karwati.Abhi bhi waqt hai Haya sudhar jao.Apni zindegi aur khushiyan apni hathon se barbad nahi karo.Bohot pastaogi tum."
Meerab about to leave but Haya said from behind.
"Mein nahi pastaogi tum dekh lena Meerab.Apni mohabbat ko mein hasil kar ke dam lungi.Tum mere aur Murtasim ke bich se hathogi."
Meerab turned around her head.
"Konsi mohabbat?Woh mohabbat jo tumhari shakal bhi nahi dekhna chahta ya phir woh mohabbat jise tumhari wajod se hi nafrat hai.Aur kya keh rahi thi tum,mein tumhari aur Murtasim ki bich se hatungi?Haya,tum mujhe yeh batao mein aayi hi kab thi jo hatungi."
Meerab slightly smiles at Haya.
"Sach kahu tum aur Murtasim kabhi hum the hi nahi.Tum humesha se uske ankhon ke samne thi.Use tumhari jasbaat ka pura ilm tha phir bhi woh tumhari taraf kabhi murke nahi dekha.Infact jab se mein yaha aayi hu use sirf tumhari beizzati karte huye hi dekha hai.Phir bhi tum us so called mohabbat ko hasil karna chahti ho.To be honest Haya yeh mohabbat nahi hai junoon hai,hasil karne ka junoon.Kisi normal insaan ki nazar se dekho to yeh kahin se bhi mohabbat nahi lagta.Sirf tumhari pagalpan nazar aata hai."
Haya looked at Meerab and asked;
"Kisi ko sala dena bohot asan hai lekin mushkil hai khud par woh amal karna.Tum mujhe batao Meerab agar tumhe kisi se mohabbat ho woh bhi saccha to kya tum apni mohabbat ko hasil karne ki kosish nahi karoge?"
"Karungi agar mein jise mohabbat karti hu uske dil mein mere liye wohi chahat ho to.Woh kya hai na Haya mein khud se bohot mohabbat karti hu.Mere liye mere self respect bohot aziz hai.Jaha mujhe mohabbat ke badle zalil hona pare woha mein marke bhi nahi jaungi.Mein itna cheap nahi hu na ke ek insaan bar bar mere chahat ho inkaar karega aur mein dheet ki tarha piche rahungi.Zindegi ek jaga thori na ruk gayi hai.Bohot kuch hai yeha karne ko.Aise naqam mohabbat ke piche mein apna waqt kabhi zaya nahi karungi.Forget it and move on.Isi ka naam to zindegi hai."
Meerab touch Haya's shoulder and say;
"Haya move on.Ek mohabbat la hasil huye hai iska matlab yeh nahi duniya mein se mohabbat gayeb ho gayi hai.Tumhe bhi aisa koi zaror milega jo tumhe sacche dil se chahega.Use apni zindegi mein aane to do.Dekhna purani baten tum bhul jaoge.Apni is obsession se bahar aao.Warna akhir mein takleef sirf tumhe hogi.Apne zindegi mein aanewale khushiyon ko aane se maat ruko.Please apni zindegi aise insaan se piche khuwar nahi karo jo tumhe nahi chahta aur na kabhi chahega."
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Murtasim walked into his room with long and heavy steps. The door was flung open. Outside, the rain is pouring down and the rocks are falling incessantly.The window curtain flies like a ship's belly fat mast.
The rain poured through the large open window and the floor of the room was very wet.Murtasim moved forward to close the window. Even as he tried to close the window,his hand stopped.Meerab is dancing in the rain.A smile came to the corner of Murtasim's lips.
Suddenly someone called out in a voice as loud as a cloud.
"Meerab."
Meerab looks at Murtasim and asks;
"Tum kab aaye?"
Murtasim was standing with an umbrella on his head. He stood quietly. Meerab said without getting an answer.
"Kya hua aise kya dekh rahe ho?"
Murtasim looked with unblinking eyes and said in a cold voice.
"Apni haq halal ki biwi ko pura haq se dekh raha hu.Tumhe koi masla hai?"
Meerab giggled.
"Yeh chatri ko choro aur yaha aau.Barish mein bhigte hai.Dekho kaisa lagta hai."
Not only Murtasim's body wet in the rain,but his heart was wet in the shower of beauty of Meerab. Even though the whole world was drenched by the incessant rains of Monsoon but fire burned in the atoms of his body.The raindrops that fell like wax on Meerab's body felt very fortunate. Because they got the touch by her.A burning sensation felt in Murtasim's chest.
"Andar chalo Meerab tumhe jhukham lag jayegi."
Meerab smiled at Murtasim.Then she suddenly extended her hand and came forward.Murtasim knows her well.Realizing the reason for her mischievous smile,he raised his hand and took the umbrella out of Meerab's reach.Meerab wanted to take Murtasim's umbrella.But not being able to do that,she could not handle the sudden imbalance,so it fell on Murtasim's chest. Murtasim's laughter and words did not escape even though she somehow caught his hand to stop herself from falling.Murtasim held Meerab with a firm hand and smiled.
"Kya baat hai!Apni shohar ke qarib aane ka bahana dhund rahi ho kya?Agar irada aisa hai to bata do.Bahana talash karne ki zarorat nahi.Waise bhi mein beqarar hu."
Meerab protest.
"Aise baat bilkul nahi hai.Mein sirf tumhe barish mein bhigana chahti thi."
"Agar tum chahti ho to bhigna to parega hi."
Murtasim smiled and said slowly to Meerab. And seeing his smile,Meerab said,
"Tum kitne khurafati ho woh mujhse behtar koi nahi janta."
Murtasim threw the umbrella himself.Without giving Meerab a chance to say or do anything,he quickly picked her up and said,
"Mein yeh chahta bhi nahi tumhari ilawa koi mujhe jane.Mein accha hu ya bura iska certificate sirf meri biwi hi de."
Meerab stares at Murtasim blankly.There is desire in his eyes for herself.His eyes are on his wet lips.
The two bodies are wet in the rain.
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Well,I'm suffering from fever from few days because of the weather,I guess.
Because of the fever,I'm deadly in writing block.I don't know how the chapter is.If you like it little bit,please share your opinion.So that I get some motivation and can able to write more.
