My Autumn with April

Eighteen

~April~

So this had to have been the stupidest thing I'd ever done. 

And the thing is, I can't even blame the alcohol because as much as I had a buzz, I wasn't wasted. I had full recollection of everything. A full memory of exactly what happened in this room last night and very clear image of exactly who is laid across the bed from me right now. 

Problem here was how I handled this now. 

I'm sure Elliott was just drunk, worried I was going to sleep with someone dangerous and get hurt or something. Or maybe he'd taken something and was too high to be in total control of his actions. I shuffled out of the bed in absolute silence, checking he was still passed out before grabbing my clothes from the floor and dipping into the bathroom where I could get dressed and avoid looking at myself in the mirror. Once I was dressed I pulled the door open slowly so it didn't creak, grabbed my bag from the floor and headed to the door, somehow managing to get out of the room without even causing him to stir in his sleep. 

This is for the best really. 

If I just act like nothing happened. I can tell the girls that we got back to the room and he said he kissed me there just to ward off any assholes. Make some shit up about some guy saying he was going to do something shitty and El needed to get me out of there before it all went wrong. That he left me at my hotel room door and we parted ways and nothing else happened. That way El comes out like the hero and he never has to know exactly how low his standards dropped last night. 

I swiped my card, getting into my room and sitting down on the bed with an exhausted huff. Autumn took a spare key to this room, specifically to make sure I was up in the morning. So to make things more believable, I started pulling at the bed sheets, laying down and making the linen look used. Only once I was satisfied with that did I bother to pull my phone from my bag. 

A dozen missed calls and texts from over the past 15 hours. I hadn't noticed them last night. Either that or I didn't care but right now, my heart sunk as another text came through.

Mum
Hey Pumpkin, I'm guessing you're out
with Autumn and the girls since you haven't 
answered any of our texts and calls last night. 
We're home. In Coleisle. Really need you to 
come home as soon as. Love you xx

Shit. 

I jumped out of the bed, gathering my things into my bag quickly before changing and leaving. I'd have to get the first ferry which leaves the docks in 20 minutes and even then I've still got 2 hours to over think last night and why the hell my parents are back. 

The 2 hours passed exactly as I thought they would. A mix of emotions whilst I sat on a crappy plastic chair, trying to make myself look sane in a compact mirror. I felt guilty. A pit in my stomach that was developing into a black hole and threatening to swallow me hole. 

This could really mess with Elliott's standing on the island and it was incredibly selfish of me to have even let it get that far. 

Maya
Hey, where are you?

Me
Sorry, I had to come home,
something came up I need to sort 
immediately. I'll be in touch once I've 
worked out what's going on. 

Maya
Okay. Is El with you?

I swallowed, tipping my head back against the wall behind me. I hate lying to people. I hate telling them everything is fine when I feel the lowest I've ever been. But they all have so much shit on their own plates they really don't need mine to be worrying about too. 

Me
No?
Last I saw of him he was leaving me
at my hotel door last night. 

Maya
????