So Keep In Happiness And Torture Me

But I'll Never Wander My Friend

I headed for the studio, but I planned on grabbing the car and driving straight home.  It felt good as I climbed in the driver's seat and sped off with the satisfaction of knowing that Jack was going to have to explain everything when he got back.  I only wished I was there to watch.  I passed through the streets seamlessly, every traffic light turning green as I approached it; it felt as though God was on my side although I'm not religious the way I used to be.  Although we both lived here this was theoretically Jack's house as I'd been the one that had moved in with him, six months after we'd got together just over a year back.  So I'd be the one that was moving out.  It was impossible to know if Jack was going to come chasing after me swiftly in an attempt to reason with me or linger with the others for as long as possible but to be on the safe side I was aiming to gather everything and get out as quickly as possible.  Some might have said it was a bit drastic, but the truth was that it was the excuse I needed to say goodbye to Jack for good.  As quickly as I could, I unlocked the door and began to gather up all the possessions I was actually bothered about keeping in a suitcase.  I could always pick up the other stuff later but right now I just wanted to make my point and get out.  I didn't know where I was going to go but that didn't cause me to hesitate.  I was climbing in the car, turning the keys and driving far, far away.  After five minutes I revelled in my minor victory and after five more my phone began to ring - it was Jack - and I revelled in my next victory of ignoring his call.

I pulled into the Wal-Mart carpark so I had a little time to think about what I was going to do.  I told myself I had options but there was only one thing I wanted to do and one person I wanted to talk to.  Vic.  I couldn't help but create a fantasy in my mind of pulling in at his house and being welcomed in open arms as he led me up to his bed, Louisa out of the picture..

"Kellin?"

"Hey Vic.  Are you busy?"

"Not particularly, why?"

"I, I just-" my voice began to crack

"Woah are you alright Kel?"

"Not really to be honest.  No, I'm not."

"What's wrong?"

"It's Jack."

"Uh oh.  What about him?"

"I've just caught him and Alex together being, erm, intimate."

""Shit, I didn't see that coming, what did you do?"

"I had a little go but there were fans there.  I just walked out of the place and now I've packed my stuff and gone."

"You must be upset, I don't know what to say."

"And I don't know what to do."  Come on Vic, just tell me you'll come see me and cheer me up.  Please Vic.

"Do you need somehwere to stay tonight?"

"I'll probably end up in some hotel or something."  But I'd rather be with you.

"You can stay at mine if you like?"  I was glad he couldn't see the huge grin spreading on my face over the phone.

"That would be great.  Are you sure though?"

"Definitely!  I'm your best friend, I'm here to cheer you up."  It was music to my ears; "besides, Louisa's out so it will just be us two."  Jack couldn't have picked a better day to be a cunt.

"Cool, when do you want me over?"

"Whenever you like.  I'm just playing about with the guitar a bit at the moment, nothing important.  So yeah, come when you want to."

"Ah, I'll probably be over soon then."

"See you later Kel!"

"See you Vic!"  I sat in silence as I strained my ears to hear his last, majestic breaths before he finally hung up. 

I decided to get up and walk around Wal-Mart for a little even though I had no interest in anything there.  I didn't want to get to Vic's too quickly and seem too eager even though I knew I wouldn't be able to keep myself away for much longer.  I knew it was wrong, but now I knew that I was seeing Vic later my 'grief' about Jack had been pushed straight to the back of my mind.  Vic was all that matters.