"I haven't felt like this in so long and it's an old but familiar feeling to let you make me forget about all the other guys I've been with and I often find myself completely at your mercy and you like to kiss me with your hand around my throat and your other with your nails digging into my skin and it's something I've never experienced before and something new and i can't think when we do this I can't think when you kiss me and I can't help but let myself go when you look at me with that controlling look in your eyes and it makes me more comfortable than any guy that looks at me with love in their eyes and being controlled is something I know how to do whereas being loved is a skill I lack though I wish I didn't and while I have to convince myself to commit to someone that buys me flowers and tells me they love me I have no trouble at all wanting to be everything to someone who leaves bruises on my skin and makes me chase after them and they love me just as much but I have to work harder for it and in return I get exactly what I always crave, a challenge."
-the challenge[a•m]
