As It Was B4 But Now.

A story of wAy pAsT aWkWarD pt i.

What a Beautiful sight this is...such a beautiful boy,such a naive child of a woman.
She's the one that didn't leave her room for 3 months because she was "sad".
She was the on her phone the entire time talking to a man she loved front and back, from the bottom and up...for him?
She even left the house.
She went out in the sun for this one man.
But it was quite dark and he kinda felt like batman.
They talked on the phone for hours it made her feel so...SAFE.
She muttered words underneath her breath that he could never quite hear nor could he quite understand, stuff like,"I love you ", "you feel like my soulmate " & every time he'd say,"huh? What did you say?"
She'd respond in a flinched manner "I think we're so alike....that's what I said"
"Oh! I feel the exact same way" he'd respond.

It didn't really matter to her whether he loved her or not all that mattered was well...he was THERE.
He wasn't even supposed to be there he was supposed to be with she.
Maybe it was her bad appetite for male attention and validation that blinded her from the fact that she wasn't supposed to be there, SHE was supposed to be there.
The hunger grew so vastly that even her mother began to notice the rage in her eyes when the man was no longer happy with her.
But he was somehow just like her,even after being angry he'd text her ,"hey, what did you do today?"
And they'd go on laughing and discussing serious topics like farts but that wasn't her place, she was the one he had to talk too not her.
They are quite the awkward fellows.
They were beautiful, they weren't together but they were so beautiful.
They laughed all morning till it was noon, dawn, moon but it was supposed to be she!!!
They talked so much about so many insightful topics,he told her about that one uncle & she told him about that one aunt from "the 60".
He wanted to save her from the world sometimes, it always seemed to be throwing rocks at her that were supposed to be at the feet of God...I'm unsure,maybe they thought she was strong.
She's quite weak if you ask me,she cries every time soap enters her nose...probably what she deserved for being in a spot where someone else was supposed to be standing.
Days passed, months too but not years of course but all the conversations got deeper each time the clocked clicked 10.
They began to talk about famous topics like sex.
They were hormonal humans, I'd like to assume every "normal" human is just like these flocks.
She quoted Sza lyrics to him, saying she could be his supermodel,only if he believed.
He saw it in her but he wasn't supposed to.
The sunset is much more beautiful than the one watching it, he should chase after it.
But he sits here, making her believe that she didn't overthink the situation.
Now you're probably getting all sorts of ideas ...validation is so venomous and leaves you quite blinded and jumpy like you just made contact with a live wire.
This child clearly tried all she could to leave all that dirt underneath a dirty carpet, all for this one moment where they could both watch the sunset and the two would be in sync as they were way past awkward from this narrative.