Hamilton One shots

Forgotten ( Lams- angst)

pov. John Laurens

I was on mine and Alex's bed crying we had been living together for what seemed like forever but it felt like I kept seeing him less and less. I picked up the picture on the nightstand.It had me and Alex at a park sitting on a bench together, a huge smile on our face as we laughed. I remembered all those times my tears falling onto the picture ruining the perfect memories. All the pictures of us seemed to taunt me with how life used to be. Did he even still love me at all or was work the only thing he cared about.as I continued to sob I got a notification.

Lexi : I'll be home late tonight see you around 8:00 ish, Love you Jackie

me: okay Alexander...

as I set the phone down tears streamed down my face half in anger the other being sadness. What was he working on that was more important than me, his own boyfriend of seven years now. When he finally got home I was still crying hugging the picture of me and him. I was to sad to look up at him standing in our doorway.

"John..." he started but didn't finish

"do you still love me?" I asked in a monotone voice trying not to cry.

'John I-" I cut him off

"Why are you never Here for me, is your work really that important, even more than me your own beloved, I've Loved you for years and you only seem to push me away, Why Alexander. I love you, I support you, I'm here for you! WHY CAN'T YOU DO THE SAME FOR ME!" I cried, tears now streaming down my face as I looked into his eyes, he looked scared.

" I don't want to... to be forgotten... and I Know I've been a hori-" He whispered almost silently

"well I wish I could forget I ever met you" I hissed angrily before he could finish speaking. I immediately snapped my mouth shut, regretting my words at the look on his face. Small tears pricked at the corners of his eyes as his face winced and the corners of his lips quivered. We both froze standing there silently. his dark brown eyes meeting my Jade eyes. He blinked hard and balled his fist.

" WELL MAYBE YOU SHOULD!" He yelled throwing something at me before running out of the room sobbing. I heard him slam the front door as I stood there shocked at my own words. did he just leave? would he be back ever again? would I ever see his face when I woke up? Would I ever tell him I loved him again? I shakily went over to what he'd thrown only to find a small black box. I slowly opened it only to find a beautiful rose gold ring inside along with a small note.

my dearest, Jackie,

I know I've been working overtime for the past couple months and having to leave so early I hardly even get to tell you I love each morning. I want you to know that you are the light of my life and the best thing that's ever happened to me. You're the sunshine that warms my heart every day, you're the first beautiful snowfall of the winter, you're the dew drops on every perfect leaf and blade of grass shimmering in the warm glow of the suns first rays, you're everything beautiful made into the one man I could ever truly love. ever since the day I met you I knew my heart was yours forever, the moment we kissed I knew you'd always be mine, the moment you said we should start dating I knew you'd be the only person I'd want to Marry. I know I suck at showing it and I'm surprised you have put up with all my bullshit for the past several years but I know nothing would make me happier than getting to call you, John Laurens my husband.

I read the note sobbing my eyes out. He loved me so much and I was to blind to notice. I pulled my knees to my chest and began to shake and sob even louder. I was still curled into a tight ball crying into my hands when My phone rang

"H-Hello" I answered shakily.

"hey is this John Lawrence? Laurens? something starting with L " I heard a man say into the phone