What if Lucy died?

UHGG LIFE SUCKS RIGHT NOW

TW⚠️ SH, HOSPITAL, BLOOD⚠️
Tamaras pov:
T: T, are you okay?
Ta: Yeah, sure. Why wouldn't I be?...
T: You know I'm here if you want to talk?
Ta: Yeah, I know... I love you
T: I love you too, well I'm going to bed, okay?
Ta: Yeah, I was planning to go to mine as well...
I walked into my room, and my whole world fell apart, I couldn't lie to them about my feelings! I miss my mom, my boyfriend broke up with me, everyone at school will probably hate me because "I broke up with him" even if it's not true because Lucas is as manipulative as Chris! The next morning I went to school as always and my thoughts were right everyone stared me down and started making comments about who I was and what I did, I stayed at school for 3 hours and went home, my dad was in bed at home because it was his day off but I didn't care I went to my room and locked the door. I grabbed my razor blade, and placed it to my forearm and cut a few times the blood flowed down my arm and  I felt that my knees were going week so I went to sit on my office chair and started panicking until I collapsed to the ground.

Tim's pov:
I heard a door being slammed closed, and after that, I heard something fall on the ground in Tamaras' room. I went to her room and knocked on her door, no response... I knocked a second time but again no response, I tried to open the door but i couldn't for some reason, I kicked the door open  and saw her laying on the floor with a lot of blood next to her. I didn't know what to do. My head was knocking, and all I heard was a beep, I did this a lot on the job but not with my own child.
T: Come on, Tim, you know what to do. Just grab a towel and wrap it around her wrist, then call 911.
That's what I did a few moments later. My driveway was occupied by an ambulance, and my house was full of ambulance nurses.
AN(ambulance nurses): Sargent Bradford, do you know what happened?
AN: sir? I need you to tell me what happened.
T: Hmm?
AN: Sir, what happened?
T: I- I don't know... help her!
AN: Sir, we're doing all we can, but I need you to tell me what happened.
T: sh- she- she cut her wrist...
AN: Okay, thank you. Do you want to go with the ambulance?
T: y- yeah -...

Normal pov:
Tim got helped in the ambulance, and when they got to the hospital, they took Tamara right into surgery.
AN: Sir, can I call someone for you?
T: erm, no...
After that, Tim called Angela to come to the hospital.
Ang: Hey Tim, everything alright?
T: I- I need you...
Ang: Tim, is everything alright? Where are you?
T: Help me I can't breathe, I- I'm at shaw Memorial, it- it is Tam- ara.
Ang: I'm on my way Tim, keep the phone connected.
T: s- sure, be quick, please.
Ang: Tim, I'm driving the speed limit, I can't drive faster.
T: Okay
Ang: What happened?
T: sh- she s- stormed off to h- her room wh- when sh- she came home in the midd- middle off her school d- day and I heard something fall on th- the ground s- so I took a look but end- ended up knocking her d- door down and th- there she was on the ground with cu- cuts on her wrist...
Tim sobbed while telling
Ang: I'm at the parking lot, I'm coming inside.
Angela walked in and ended the phone call and ran up to Tim and hugged her best friend

Angela's Pov:
I ran up to my best friend and hugged him tight, I had tears rolling down my cheeks, Tamara is a special girl to me, she's so fragile and strong it reminds me of Lucy...
Ang: she's going to be okay. She's strong. Do you know anything yet?
T: No, she's still in surgery.
Ang: Okay, let's sit down and wait for updates...
We sat down, and it took ages for an update, so I guess I fell asleep...
T: ang, wake up, we can see Tamara.
Tim said, shaking my shoulder.
We stood up and walked down the hall.
Ang: What room?
T: 146B
Ang: That's here.
Tim held the door open for me, and we walked in.
Tamara was looking outside the window, Tim went to the side she was facing and hugged her tightly.
T: omg, T, I'm so glad you're okay.
Ta: I'm so so sorry, dad
Tamara broke down in tears it made my heart sink.

Tamaras Pov:
I cried in my dad's arms, I felt so sorry and so bad about what I did...
T: Don't be, you didn't know it would end up like this...
My dad said in a soft tone I remember from my moms funeral. But it didn't matter that much because I still snapped at him...
Ta: I should have known it, that's why so many people do this!
I yelled, and my dad shed a tear...

Normal pov:
Tim looked at Angela, who signed that she would go outside and wait after Tim and Tamara had talked.
T: Tam?
Ta: Yeah?
T: Did you try to kill yourself?
Ta: Maybe? I don't know...
T: Are you scared off the death?
Ta: I don't know... I- I mean mom's dead, I'm bullied at school, you're at work most of the time what makes me scared because I don't want you to get hurt...
Tamara got a panick attack.
T: Hey, hey, hey, come on, princess, 1, 2, 3, in, 1, 2, 3, out...
(This went on for 10 minutes)
Tamara calmed down but still sobbed.
T: I didn't know you were so scared when I'm out on patrol...
Ta: I am, and it isn't the first time I cut myself...
T: ... mhm... was it because of mom?
Ta: Yeah...

Tamaras pov:
FLASHBACK
It's the day of Lucy's funeral we just came back from the funeral and I went to my room, I saw my scissors laying on my desk, "Should I?" It was a dilemma that stayed in my head for 20 minutes long before I just grabbed them and cut... I was so disappointed in myself, but I couldn't stop, so I did it a few more times and went to bed until I heard a knock...

Normal pov:
T: Oh, T, why didn't you say something?
Ta: Because I was so disappointed and I thought that you would be mad...
T: I wouldn't be mad at you, I would rather be worried, you scared me, you know?
Ta: ... Can we go home? I'm not comfortable in this bed...
T: I think we need to stay. You cut your main artery, which caused you to bleeding and your panick attack... could you tell me what happened at school?
Ta: I don't know if I'm ready yet... I'm sorry...
T: Hey, no need to apologize, I get it, I used to do these things too...