𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 - 𝐡𝐞𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠

(32) . 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐘-𝐓𝐖𝐎

Now that I've met him again, I don't think it's a good idea to pretend like nothing happen...when that's what I should do right?

I bit my lower lip while facing the mirror, continuously talking to myself while doing my skincare.

I just can't let him, and our mistakes bother me especially at work, but what am I gonna do now? do I have a choice? Now that he's here in New Zealand, just got into accident, and unexpectedly getting cured at the hospital where I am working at.

After doing my thing at my comfort room, I went to my bed, thinking and creating scenarios, just in case I encounter some of it tomorrow, I'm prepared.

As I keep starring at the ceiling, his voice, and what he said keep lingering into my mind.

Just how... how can he say that so easily?

Ever since I left South Korea, I started to live independently. Those people he's saying that they were worried about me are the cause why I'm here right now.

But I don't have any regrets.

Even my parents just threw me now that they can no longer use me. I was twenty-two when they disowned me.

"Mom..don't do this!" I begged while they were packing my things, my throat was hurting because of shouting but I still begged.

I don't think I can do it without my family, my parents.

"I told you to be good, we were expecting a lot from you!" Dad shouted at me while his index finger keeps on poking my head.

I still love them. They are my parents, they're the only one I have.

"Dad, I never failed to be a top student. Mom, I always win pageants, right? I've been good ever since! I'm graduating from the Nursing School this year, Mom, Dad!" crying my heart out until the guards grabbed my arms tightly and drags me out of the house.

Our maids our looking at us, I asked them too for a help, they seem want to but couldn't.

"No, you failed! You're such a big disappointed Sunhye, it's just a right thing that I've booked a flight for you. Leave, we don't wanna see you." hearing that from my Dad, broke me.

What did I really failed for? for them to hurt me like this.

Even mom didn't say a thing, it broke me. I tried to call everyone I know for a help, including him.

Yes... including Lee Heesung.

I felt so helpless that day, I was ignored. That's why I promised I will never let them use me again. What I'm feeling right now, they earned it.

... I whipped my tears and decided not to think about it more, sadness can be easily burn, feeling of hatred can fade away, but the way I was treated like some piece of shit, will be never forgotten.

—

As I was checking my patient's vital signs for today, Doc. Aidan walked up to me.

He greeted me a good morning so I did the same.

"Nurse Shin, wanna grab some coffee?" he asked, the grandma in front of me blushed. She might be thinking that he's some king of my suitor, or boyfriend.

I shook my head, there one patient I have to keep an eye on for the whole day.

"Were you avoiding me? I apologized already—"

"Excuse me Doc., I still have a patient at the room 115. I'm not mad or something, again, excuse me."

"Then why—"

I didn't heard what he last said and just continue walking towards the elevator and clicked the 6th button.

I held my clipboard tightly before opening the room. Every step that I'm taking towards him makes my heart pound.

It's not like that feeling anymore, I know it's hatred.

"I've been... waiting for you." the first sentence that came out from his mouth after I placed my clipboard on the side table.

Not surprising, I'm his Nurse after all.

He's looking at me, eyes watery, is he thirsty? Damn, why didn't the nurses earlier asked him if he's hungry or something after they took his vital signs? 

"I'm hungry—"

"You should've tell the Nurses earlier instead of waiting for me."

And so he looked at the other way, "They can't pronounce some Korean dishes properly."

Stupid, of course, they're foreigners?

I rolled my eyes, while checking the gauze on his feet.

"There's no available Korean dishes at the cafeteria, might as well get a vegetable salad and energy drink."

"Will you get it for me?"

"Of course, it's my job after all."  nice, let's keep this professionalism agenda going.

I heard him took a deep breath, "Aside from that, can we talk?"

"What for?"

"Your father..." he stopped, "Just got an heart attack last month, he was—"

I immediately look at him, "Now that you've found me, are you going to tell them where I was?"

Heesung gets up and looked at me seriously, he betrayed me once, he's gonna make it twice?

"Don't you wanna see them? check them?" huh, seriously? I don't care.

"Can you hear yourself right now? do you think I care?" no tears for now, I looked at him, eyes fuming in anger.

He can't believe he's hearing this from me. His expression tells everything. "You've... change..." And I knew it, if I didn't change, what does he think will happen to me?

Be naive, selfless, and a pet?

"I'm sorry," he started again, "For everything, I didn't know what happen that day. If you want, I can explain... Sunhye, I didn't let you... I followed you—"

"Fucking stop with those shit, what's done is done." Without looking at him, I walked to the door and was about to open it when he talked again.

"Believe me, you might hate me but I'll still make it up to you."