Dirty Holiday - (18+) (COMPLETED)

Time Keeping

Christmas and New Year felt like they were days ago, but it had been two months since I saw either of them. I had asked them both to stay away and to text me if something was wrong or they had something important to tell me. Neither of them had done anything wrong, I was the one who should have seen more clearly and not carried on with my wild ways.

Everyday my bump felt a little bigger, sometimes I was close to certain I could see its head pressing under my skin. The baby was getting closer and closer to being part of my world and not just me anymore.

It is going to be strange. Sweat will be pouring off me whilst Xander and Lucas both stand staring mouths wide open at the child coming out from me. After that I won't be a sexy lady with perky tits and a tight ass. I'll have a baby hanging off my nipple and stretched skin flapping over my hips.
Right now is when I need help and comfort the most, the worries of not knowing were twisting my organs. In less than two months I will be in extreme agony, I will feel pain like no other pain.

I want both Lucas and Xander to be with me through the whole thing, not just the birth and finding out who is daddy. I don't want one of them to find out they aren't the father and sulk away defeated I want them both by my side until my baby isn't a baby anymore, until my baby can make judgement of them themselves. But how would that be fair on either of them, not knowing where they stand. And how would my child feel having two men coming and going all of the time, then again what child would complain about extra birthday presents.

I'm just so afraid to say something wrong to either of them and then loose them both, I have no other friends and my mum is a muppet.

Never before had I had two men so desperate to be with me. I just wish one would move on to another girl so it would make it easier for me.

All I can do right now was let my mind plague my body with worrying thoughts. I am a slut, I am playing two men because I'm afraid to loose either. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing to be greedy- oh stop it Zofia! Just admit that it's not the baby you want the two men for its your own selfish desire to have two handsome men drooling over you!

I had to stop constantly torturing myself over this I knew I did, but what else was I meant to think about? What do normal 7 month pregnant women do? Knit? I'd seen the cute things on Pinterest with the fabric with the babies name sown on it with a little hand stitch, but I didn't have any name in mind yet I don't even know whether it's going to be a boy or a girl. Would I have to get both Lucas and Xander to agree on the name? That itself was going to be a fete.

I shook myself out of the worried daze and found some slip on shoes I needed some air.

And of course the second I left my apartment and locked the door Lucas bumped into me.

'Sorry did I catch you at a bad time?' Lucas asked scratching his head.

'Nope perfect time I just need to go out for some fresh air. Wanna join me?'

'I'd love to.'

Once we'd left the building it took a few steps before I realised how good he smelt.

'How open minded would you say you are these days, Zofia?' Lucas asked walking backwards in front of me, I didn't know where we were going I just let my feet take me.

'On a scale from 1 to 10. Being pregnant and all I'd say 0.9.' My thoughts rarely cycled from the baby.

'Okay, I'm going to put my balls on the line then.' Lucas stage gulped, smiled and then took my hand pulling me in the opposite direction.

'Where are you taking me?' I wasn't exactly thrilled I was worried, what the hell needed open mindedness?

'It's better to show you than tell you.' He said giving my hand a gentle reassuring squeeze.

Three streets later after pondering all the desirable outcomes... Chocolate factory... Nope at the moment a chocolate factory was I all wanted. And the non desirable outcomes... Everything. We stood outside a house set back from the road with a set of steps leading up to the front door, a very small chocolate factory.

'Zofia, there's no need to look so scared.' Lucas laughed.

'Sometimes it's safer to fear the worst than the best, that way it's more likely it'll be better than expected.'

'Everything is to your disposal remember that.' Lucas went up the steps of the house and opened the front door holding it open for me, I shakily made my way up to meet him.

The air smelt stale despite the door being open, we walked into the hallway and Lucas shut the door behind me. There was no furniture insight and the only item around was a single letter dangling from the letter box. Before us there was a staircase, to both the left and right there were doorways and to the side of the staircase was a door a gape.

'If it's a surprise party tell me now.' I sighed staring ahead.

'No, this is a bit more serious.'

'Where are we? Whose house is this?'

'I told you to be open minded.' Lucas smiled opening the door on the left and gently pulling me into the room. Inside it was empty except a small fireplace and a Moses basket with a golden teddy bear inside. 'I want you and the baby to live here. That is if you want to.'

'Of course I want to Lucas! How did you afford this?!'

'Well-'

'It doesn't matter never mind!' I jumped up and wrapped my legs around him kissing him hard on the lips. 'Thank you.' I whispered my eyes lingering to his.

'I want nothing else but for you to be happy.'

I couldn't help myself but kiss him more...