Dirty Holiday - (18+) (COMPLETED)

Companion

ZOFIA'S Point of view

Technically abiding to Xander and Lucas's rules, me and Lucas had not just had sex, I'd had sex but not with Lucas... Technically.

Two weeks had passed since I had seen either of them, though to be fair I had done a great job of pissing them off.

10 weeks pregnant was my guess, nearly a third through it all. Yet I hadn't been to a doctor until today.

I sat in the waiting room feeling anxious, wrapping my ankles around the cold metal chair legs.

'Zofia Rodriguez?' A doctor called twirling his pen round his fingers.

I didn't say a word as I walked up to him, but as he glanced at me 'hi' squeaked out from my lips. He smiled lightly, enough not to mock me, and enough to know considered me human.

He opened his door for me and waved me through.

'So Miss Rodriguez, what can I do for you?' He asked as we took seats.

'I'm pregnant.' I said plainly.

'Alright then, is this your first prenatal appointment?'

'Yes.'

'And when was your last period?'

'I was on the pill so I'm not sure. I would estimate I'm about 10 weeks pregnant.'

'And how did you realise you were pregnant?'

I could barely look him in the eye, my eyes darted everywhere else but at him. 'I got hit by a car, I went into hospital they told me a urine sample was positive.'

'I can clearly see you are very nervous. How else do you feel about the pregnancy?'

'I want to bring my baby into a good world.'

'Okay, do you think there's any concerns with the pregnancy you want me to look into? I mean it's quiet a miracle itself.'

'Well I've been having a lot of sickness.'

'That's a good sign of a healthy baby. How your appetite?'

'Not great, but I force myself to eat something at every meal time.'

'Okay, can I ask you to lie on the table so I can feel around?' He asked whilst standing up.

This is why I had worn the skirt, easy access, I wasn't particularly fond of the idea of someone poking my down below for for a fetus but I had myself ready.

'I'm going to book you for a blood test and an ultrasound so we can determine your due date. Is next week alright?'

'Yeah I'll make room for it.' I squirmed as I laid on the tissue rolled out onto the bed.

'Do your family have any genetic illnesses?'

'Not that I know of.' My mum was mental did that count?

'What about your husbands side?' He asked taking a stethoscope from his desk drawer and warming the metal with his breath.

'I'm not married.'

'Boyfriend?' The doctor grinned slightly.

'Could be one of two men.'

'Two potential fathers, well in our day and age we can't expect all pregnancys to occur the same way. Could you find out for me if either of them have any genetic illnesses in their families please?' He added as he lifted my shirt.

'It wasn't exactly planned as you can imagine, the baby will be loved no matter what though. I can find out as much to make sure everything is clear.' I said trying to smile.

'This may be cold.' He said pressing the stethoscope on my womb.

'Can I listen to my babys heart beat?' I croaked nervous.

'This early one I won't be able to find it, I'll need a Doppler. Right now I'm checking the air and density in your womb.' I wasn't going to question him anymore he obviously knew what he was doing.

'How long until you can determine my exact due date?'

'They should be able to estimate that with the Doppler machiene. Everything seems okay, that's all I need to check, if you have any concerns feel free to pop back in. Just go to the receptionist to book the blood test.' He smiled pulling my shirt back down. 

'Thank you so much.'

'You're welcome I remember what my wife was like with our first, with modern technology there's little to panic about.' He said turning to look at the photo of a young boy giggling.

'Awwh he's adorable.'

'He's a little rascal is what he is.' The doctor laughed. 'I'll see you soon anyway.'

'Thanks again, bye.' I said leaving the room.

I felt alot more confident now, just in being me, it was good to know I had a healthy baby growing in me.

I had one half dilemma though, would I go to the ultrasound alone or take Xander with me? Lucas was obviously out of the question, he still didn't seem completely steady feeted about the idea of having a baby.

Lucas would hopefully be as prepared as Xander, he just needed to grow used to it. Then again by giving Lucas that chance I was going against my own word to pick the one whom would be better for my baby.

Whilst walking down the pavement towards Xanders home I felt a sense of pride. Soon I wouldn't be a lonely woman bouncing between two boys, I would be a mother with a baby and I would heed those responsibilities.

I would be pretty alone in the long run.

No more lay ins.

No more going out when I please.

No more leaving the house with only a purse.

No more clean carpets.

I stopped and looked at Xanders house, he had a beautiful home compared to my apartment...

This wasn't either of their responsibilities. It was mine alone it takes two to tangle. I couldn't push my child onto them.

I would wait for the next bus home. Change my life before anyone elses, and even then they could make their own decisions.