i never said i liked you (book 2)

hope

{stephanie}

7:30 pm

I was lying on my bed, just wishing that Steve was next to me. Thanksgiving is supposed to be about being together and being grateful for what you have, and of course I'm grateful for my friends and family...but most of all I'm grateful for Steve. It wouldn't have even worked out between us if I hadn't admitted my feelings for him in the first place, I've always wanted him...ever since we were little kids, and now we're broken up because of a dumb girl that messed with his mind.

My bedroom door slightly opened and I looked over and saw Steve slowly shutting the door, I quickly sat up, "Steve?!" "Hey." I stood up and shockingly spoke, "W-what are you doing here? I thought you were celebrating Thanksgiving at your place," "I was, but the boys were roughhousing and irritated my dad so the party ended," "Oh." We both just sorta stood there looking at each other, I sighed, "Steve, I didn't cheat on you...I would never do such a thing," "I know," "You know?" "Nancy came over and told me everything, she confessed about what she did. I'm sorry I believed that you would do something like that, it just sort of brought back memories..." "From when I fake dated Dally, I know. And I'm sorry, Steve I only ever wanted you safe," "I guess that's why I was pretty confused when I saw you hanging out with Cherry," "Me and Cherry are okay now, I know this sounds crazy but,I really care about her," "That's good Steph." I softly spoke, "So...what about..us? Are we broken up forever?." Steve sighed and anxiously spoke, "Stephanie Judith Curtis, there's nothing that can keep us apart...that's why I want you to know that, someday I want to marry you." I looked at him shocked, "W-what?!??" "I want you to be the girl that I marry Steph," "But what about you being upset about me not coming home for Christmas break?" "Steph I love you, and if you want to stay in California for Christmas break...I get it, I was just so upset because...". Steve trailed off, I cupped his cheek with my hand, "Steve, say what you were gonna say," "I was so upset because, we've never spent a Christmas away from each other Stephanie. We've spent every single Christmas together since you were 8 and I was 9, I just...I don't ever want to spend Christmas without you." I looked at him sympathetically, "I didn't know that's how you felt about it, if you want me to come home...than I will," "But your right Steph, you have to live your life. And if you want to stay in California for Christmas, then...I understand and I will support you," "I just want you to be happy Steve," "Steph I am happy, and it's because I have you. I'm sorry I freaked out, I want you to do what you want, I don't want to be the boy that makes you walk away from your dreams." I pulled him closer to me and pressed my lips against his, he kissed me back, wrapping his arms around my waist. I pushed him back onto my bed and climbed on top of him, not breaking the kiss once. I ran my hands through his hair, as he rested his hands on my waist. Suddenly, my bedroom door opened and Darry appeared in the doorway. I quickly got off of Steve and embarrassingly spoke, "Darry! You're supposed to knock!!" "You know you're not aloud to have boys in your room," "Yeah yeah, what did you really come up here to tell me?" "I just wanted to see if you and Steve made up...I guess I already know my answer."

{cherry}

9:00 pm

Bryce and I just laid on my bed and stared at my ceiling, I sadly spoke, "So, I guess I have to go back to college soon," "Yeah," "Bryce, I told myself not to fall for you," "But you did," "I know, and I'm happy I did, but I'm gonna be sad when I have to leave." He wrapped his arm around me and sadly looked at me, "I'm gonna be sad too, but I can come visit you in Cali...and then this summer I'll come join you at Sarah Lawrence."My head popped up, "What?! You got into Sarah Lawrence?!?" "Yeah...I applied last summer and I got the acceptance letter yesterday, I haven't told anyone yet...until now." I wrapped my arms around him happily, "Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you," "Thanks Cherry, I'm more excited that I'll be attending the same college as you...we will get to be closer," "We're soulmates Bryce...I just know it." He pulled me close to him and eagerly kissed me, both of us not having a care in the world for anything else but each other.

{sodapop}

saturday november 27th, 1965
8:00 am

I was sitting on my front porch as the November crisp air surrounded me, as my depression settled in even more. Nancy Walker met everything to me, I really loved her, I think even more than I loved Sandy. I really thought me and Nancy's relationship was real, but I guess I was wrong. The front door opened and Darry peeked his head outside, he looked at me concerned, "Sodapop? What are you doing out here? It's freezing!" "Just had to clear my head." He came outside and sat down next to me on the swing, he softly spoke, "I'm so sorry Soda," "I loved her Darry...so much," "I know you did buddy," "I just don't get why every girl I date always ends up hurting me, it's like I'll never be good enough," "That's not true Soda!" If I was good enough then I'd have the perfect girlfriend by now," "It takes time Sodapop." I glared, "That's bullshit! You have your girlfriend, Steph has Steve, you guys all have these special people and I have...no one." Darry put his arm around my shoulder, "I know you're hurting Soda, but everything is going to get better," "Before...before mom and dad died,  mom told me I'd meet a nice girl and we'd get married and have beautiful children. And I believed her, but it just doesn't feel like it's going to happen," "Sodapop, you're 16...you have your whole life ahead of you to meet the most perfect girl and get married and have children, you have so much more time to find your special significant other," "Why's it taking so long Darry?" "Because when the time is right you will meet the right girl, I promise," "I thought Sandy was the right girl, then I thought Nancy was...how will I know when I meet the right girl?" "You just will, she'll stick out to you and everything will feel different," "What if I never find her?" "You will Soda, I know it...and so did mom and dad."
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