Franks POV
I looked out the window at the rainy weather and signed, the knot in my stomach tightening when the familiar black cobalt pulled into the driveway. Gerard and Mikey missed practice yesterday and they were here today.
Ray sat beside me and patted my thigh, "Just be cool man, Mikey said Gerard has been acting a little strange since last night and he claims he's just sick but he agreed to come today. If he says anything out of line just don't respond negatively and if he tries to hit you me and Mikey will get him out of the room. We aren't going to sacrifice this thing we all have because of you or him because its not that serious. It'll ease up sooner or later."
When the sound of footsteps filled the hall I nodded and Ray moved to a more casual position by the sound board.
Mikey walked in first and he looked tired and sad, I wanted to ask him what was going on, and I wanted to hug him, and I wanted to talk to Gerard but I just sat there and stared.
When Gee walked in I was shocked, he was pale, and I could tell he hasn't been to sleep because his eyes were rimmed with purple bruises and he looked defeated, not even soaring me a glance.
There was a dead silence in the room and absolutely no one knew what to say, "So uh... We should run through halos first because the recording from Wednesday was a little scratchy from Gerard's mic dying. I know you're sick so just do your best and if its not good enough we'll record over it," Ray said and everyone just sort of nodded and took places.
Ray did a small countdown on his fingers signaling Gerard to start. The silence was broken by the song and I was so thankful to hear Gerard's voice ring out. It was amazing and I engulfed myself in every word as much as I could without missing a note. "Well let's go back to the middle of the day that starts it all." I was okay. "I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling." I'll be okay. "And now these red one's make me fly." Don't cry Iero. "and the blue ones help me fall." Shit. "And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling." I lost it. I stopped playing, sat my guitar down, and walked over to Gerard. Ray stopped playing, then Mikey, and Gerard's voice fell silent as we made eye contact for the first time.
He was beautiful, he truely was. "Gerard-" I was about to talk when I saw Mikey walk out quickly and Ray looked at us both.
Mikey's POV
I felt every inch of me screaming to push Frank out of the way, tell Gerard I know, tell him how I feel. What I did. What I had the courage to do. I walked out, I walked away before I could see them connect again, before I could see my small shot in the dark with Gerard get stepped on.
As I stepped outside I realized how I felt. I felt like my flame had been put out, but the truth was, my flame was never lit and I was just seeing spots in a dark room. I heard footsteps on the stairs and when I saw Gerard looking at me and I knew he was alone I broke.
"Gerard... I know what you're doing and its not right.. And I want you to know Frank fucking Iero is not going to help you get over it. And if you Gerard fucking Way think he is, tell me now. Tell me now so I know I can give up on you, tell me now so I can walk away because I have no chance with you. I am your brother and I love you, and I want to fucking marry you; but if Frank Anthony Iero is going to take that from me I want to know right now."
Gerard's eyes rimmed with tears and he took in a sharp breath, "Frank... Frank fucking Iero is the one I want." I nodded and pushed past him with a quiet mumble of "Then let's go fucking record." But I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, rip all my hair out, and cry all at once.
Rays POV
Frank stared at me and we both looked over when Gerard walked in, grabbed Frank and kissed him passionately. Mikey sat down and looked at his shoes.
Gerard's POV
I screwed up... Mikey said he wanted to fucking marry me and here I am, holding Frank.. The little shit that broke my heart.. And the little shit that was causing me to loose my mind.
Mikey is my spirit animal in this chapter like omg.
