Look at the Jalex kiss from tonights APMA'S
Yeah the show where BVB beat Gerard Way and Frank Iero.
The show that made me scream.
thE REASON I CANT PROCESS
Sorry for the wait lovelies.
I know I said I wouldn't time lapse but I'm going to.
Time lapse to one day before Gerard is released:
He's nearly filled his scratchpad and has been improving on talking to other patients. He's made two friends, Dan and Kellin.
He's began to eat with the others and they've lowered him to one dose of antidepressants a day.
Gerards POV
Stella handed me my pills and a small plastic cup of cold water. I took the pills and she tossed the cup in the trash. "Any new drawings," she asked casually smiling at me.
"Yeah, I made this one last night. I haven't finished filling it in yet." I flipped to one of the last pages with a picture of two girls standing side by side holding hands. One holding and umbrella and the other holding flowers. Her hair barely shaded in black and the ribbon on her dress red.
Stella gazed at it smiling, "Its beautiful. God, you're so good at drawing." I didn't like it when people talked about my talents so I changed the subject. "So last day?" I ask closing the sketchpad and setting it to the side. "Yeah. By the way your therapist will be in early today she has to leave early for a wedding. Gerard I had so much fun working with you. Never stop drawing and as much as I enjoy seeing you everyday I don't want to see you back. Keep those wrists clean and that heart beating." Just as Stella said this there was a knock on the door and Alex walked in with her clipboard and pen.
"Bye Gerard." Stella said patting my shoulder and walking past Alex with a scowel, they never liked each other. I think they were actually divorced but I never asked Stella because the mention made her so mad she'd shake.
Okay. Gerard this will be our last session together. You seem like you're doing much better.
Thanks.
No problem, okay.. the crash, do you regret it?
No, but I have good reason not to. It was beautiful, it was amazing seeing the world around me knowing I was about to leave. Every little detail became visible and I was taking everything in as quick as I could. I was staring down the whole world in my most vulnerable state and then watched it fade out. It was something artistic and eye opening. However, I am happy I was saved. Because now that I'm here every thing is much more vibrant. Because I've peaked behind the world's curtains and I know what it really is, and it knows what I really am.
Wow.. I've never heard that from a patient.
Well you've never had me as your patient.
Okay we're done here. Bye Gerard, I had fun speaking to you and it was nice to get to meet you.
I nodded and watched her as she walked out. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling. I just said something to a therapist I haven't even said to myself.
At this point it didn't matter, tomorrow I'd be out of here and tomorrow morning I'd be with Mikey.
Mikeys POV
I woke up in an empty bed with the smell of coffee surrounding me and the sound of a hair dryer in the distance.
I smiled to myself, whenever I'd wake up like this is meant Andy had plans for the day. "Babe?" I called wondering down the hallway, thankful my sweater was what I wore to bed since this hallway wad always colder than the rest of the house. "Yes dear?" Andy said peaking his head out the bathroom, he looked amazing. His hair was now black again and I assumed he dyed it at some insane time when I wasn't awake.
"Oh my gosh, it looks amazing." I said walking over to him carding my hand through it causing him to blush and giggle. "Thank you. Now, go to the kitchen and make yourself some coffee and get dressed." I nodded and he kissed my forehead, "I love you." He said and I smiled. "I love you too."
As I walked to the kitchen his hair dryer started again. I know I have a lot to think about, I mean am I going back to Gerard when he gets out? Does Gerard even still want me? When does Gerard get out?
Well, today I wanted to have fun with Andy. Andy was a fun guy and he was extremely sweet. He knew I was under a lot of stress and he wanted to let me have fun and get my mind off of it.
Gerard doesn't do that. Gerard would've made me talk about it and then collapse into a cuddle puddle. That wasn't what I wanted to do. I'm 19 and I want to have fun and forget my troubles. That's the type of person I was when I met Andy and it's the type of person I will always be around Andy.
When I acted like Gerard around Andy, He went fucking insane. He doesn't like Gerards personality. Thank God he doesn't because if he did we all know he'd be all over Gerard, face it I'm not the best looking Way here.
I made a cup of coffee, Andy always had Fall like creamers around here. And since it was mid Fall his kitchen was full of spice and pumpkin smells and foods.
He was just that type of guy. Which was comforting. I made some pumpkin tasting coffee and went back upstairs to get dressed, Andy was still in the bathroom. He was also the type of guy who liked to get dressed in some of the sexiest clothes ever and then walk in like he didn't make you giggle and squirm.
I pulled on a new sweater that was grey and some black skinny jeans. I moved to the mirror to restyle my hair. After all the things I'd been through with Andy I knew where things were, I knew what was off limits and what was okay to use.
Just as I pulled on my shoes Andy's footsteps came down the hall. I turned my attention towards the door and smiled as he walked in wearing a Misfits tee shirt and some black skinny jeans.
I walked over to him and snaked my arms around his waist, "You look so sexy." He growled and pressed his lips to mine.
"We're going to have fun today.. and then tonight we'll have some more fun. Yeah?"
I nodded and pecked his lips again before pulling back. "Where are we going?"
"Amusement park." He said and I smiled, "You know me so well."
We walked down the stairs, hands clasped tightly together. I was so happy.
