Tragedy: Marvel X Y/n (Reader)

Chapter 50: "I don't understand this"

A/n: New book cover y'all.
Thanks for all of you who have been here. I really didn't think I would reach the 50th chapter of Tragedy. ❤️‍🔥

Thanks to those who have been really supporting the book and me the author by giving feedback. Love you so much.❤️

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"Y/n! Please let us in." Nat shouted from the other side of the door.

"Y/n we get that you are hurting, we want to help you." Wanda tried for the 5th time this week.

I think I've been sitting in the same position for the past few days staring out the window. I haven't eaten, I haven't slept. I haven't talked just cried. He is still in the tower, he knocked on the door and called me but I couldn't bring myself to open the door.

"Y/n please, you haven't eaten all week. I'll leave this out here please just eat it." Clint said but I didn't move an inch.

I stood up to go take a shower and every second I stood there I wished I could drown myself. When I got out the shower I saw all the knives I tried to use to stab myself. All bended and broken. This makes me wish I died in that Asgardian prison.

I stared into my broken mirror. All I could see is him staring back. I tried forgetting, I tried hating him, but I can't blame him. He said it from the beginning.

"Y/n?" I heard at the door. It was Bucky. I haven't heard from him since I begged him to kill me.

I leaned on the door and he called again.

"Y/n it's me." He said and I sighed and finally spoke for the first time in days. It felt like I forgot my own voice.

"Hi." I said back.

"Hey, how you doing in there?" He said happy that I finally spoke.

"I don't know." I replied.

"Y/n whatever is on your mind, probably won't do you any good of you keep it up there." He said.

"I don't understand this. . ." I started and tears started falling again.

"It's all hurting, I can't stand it. He left me Buck. He left and he took everything with him." I said crying and I heard his body slid down the door like he was sitting there.

"Go on, I'm right here." He said and I continued.

"It's just, my heart can't take this pain anymore. It hurts Bucky it physically hurts. He was my everything." I said wiping my tears.

"She's talking?" Nat said I assumed she saw Bucky on the floor.

"She's okay." Bucky said to get her to leave.

"I'm not okay." I said but it sounded a bit muffled because my head was buried in my knees.

"No I know you're not, I just mean you're going to be okay." He said to the door.

"I'll never be okay. He told me that he would love me forever." I responded.

"Men love saying that they find it fun." Nat said.

"No Nat, it wasn't like that , he meant it , I know he did." I responded standing up and opening the door and seeing all the meals on the floor. Bucky stood up as well after balancing himself.

"I believe he did to." Bucky said hugging me.

"You do?" I said.

"He is a troubled man but he loves you, he's just got his own demons. I think he recognizes that you are the best thing that's ever happened to him." He said rubbing my head.