Chapter 94
Jennie
Lisa surprised me. I wouldn't have blamed her if she decided to just pass out, but she got up and fetched the wet wipes. I wasn't sure what her plan was, but I was too tired and too content with myself to say anything. I thought she would try and wipe off whatever she could off the sheets, but when I felt the damp and cold texture against my thighs, I figured she rose up to clean me. I knew she pulled out, I knew she'd do it if I asked her to do so, but when the walls were closing in on me as I was nearing the climax, I didn't really pay attention to where she finished.
I flinch when I feel the tissues against my skin. That is just me being over-sensitive, but I heard her grin lazily. She must've understood why I flinched, but with her confidence she could connect that to her being incredibly irresistible. We don't talk at all and that suits me perfectly. I've had a great day with her and the ending was pretty enjoyable as well. Lisa, as sweet and attentive as she can be, tends to say things that are not always appreciated.
Once she is done getting me all cleaned up, she drops down next to me on the bed. The AC she fixed for me has been working like crazy and the temperature in the room has dropped quite a bit. It doesn't seem to bother Lisa, but I just like it when it's a bit warmer. When I get a bit cold, I turn to my other side, a blessing since I've been on my left hip for long enough. She immediately sees what I want to do, so she stretches out her arm and lets me rest with my head on her shoulder. Lying like this, close to her warms me up a bit, but she pulls a duvet over us anyway. Pretty much everything a girl could want after being with anyone.
After that Lisa is asleep in a matter of seconds, but I am wide awake all of a sudden, just like most of the nights. And like most of the nights I start to think. Usually that is about Kai and how much I miss him, but tonight, after I've had a close encounter with Lisa's family, I have plenty of other things to think about. Somehow I find that even more infuriating than trying to understand why has Kai left me. I gently run a finger over Lisa's chest and even though she is fast asleep, she stirs and shifts a little. You're pretty sensitive, aren't you?
I sigh against her skin and recall her anger when she spoke to her mother. I don't think I've seen anything like it before. People I know have had troubling childhood, but they never reacted the way Lisa has. I look up at her resting face and think to myself: What happened, Lisa?
It's not like I can expect a straightforward answer from her. I've asked her the same question before, and all I got was that a lot has happened, but according to her siblings, something must've only happened to her, she is the only one reacting so strongly. It's obvious she doesn't want to go into details, maybe because those memories are still alive for her, or is it shame that she feels? Not shame for herself, I don't believe she has any, but I think that's what makes her so charming to women. She's not a serious person frowning at all times, she has that young-rebellious-and-hungry quality about her and once that is combined with her passionate personality, it is hard to resist her.
But that's what makes her so dangerous. She is a born heart breaker - attractive, charming and with a smile to die for. I think the moment I saw her smile at me for the first time I knew that. Once I accepted that I am in no shape for meeting other people, being around Lisa became easier. Jisoo's words have poisoned me, telling me that I need to get out there, telling me I need a boyfriend, telling me all those men want me so badly. As much as it was nice to hear that, it definitely wasn't true, and Lisa was the first victim.
I can't believe I lashed out on her like that. I find it even harder to believe she stuck with me for my own safety - that was very sweet and nice of her. Back then I was just a freak she had met and she showed enough concern to completely confuse me. I spent a night, besides crying about Kai, trying to understand how, despite that all Lisa wanted from me was sex and that I was ready to claw my way through her out of anger, she still refused to leave me alone and in distress. I turn to my stomach and steady myself on my elbows. I whisper silently, quiet enough that she only smacks with her lips in sleep, "How many hearts have you broken, hmm?"
