Just a quick update, I moved out to somewhere I can live alone. It's really nice, except for the sink being broken few days after I moved in.
It came with a great mental and financial cost, of course. Nothing comes easy in this world, and I think we've established that for quite a while now.
I came back here to write about how, mostly, I listen to artists and songs that associate me with particular memory, or people.
There are also songs and artists I avoid, because I do not want them to linger in my mind too much. Not the artists or the melody, of course.
The people my mind subconsciously associate with.
Just to name a few, The Marias, Chase Atlantic, Fall Out Boy, The Weeknd, SZA, Paramore, Bring Me The Horizon, and so much more.
To others, they love the music.
For me, I love the memories, and the lines of people my mind has strangled me with. The spirit they embody. The fire in their hearts. The color of their souls. The screams of their thoughts. The concept they try to envision.
I see it all, and it hurts to observe everything and remember most things.
In silence.
